Giving in not giving up


It has been said a thousand times that to change you have to do the work. You can’t buy your way out or through it. You can’t wish it away. You can’t really avoid it because anything you are putting off is gaining momentum in the astral plane. This is one of the things I learned when I was very ill. My teacher told me that to truly heal one had to understand the underlying issue that was manifesting. Just like anorexia is not an I hate food thing its an I hate myself thing, the only way to cure it would be intense self-love therapy, something frankly we all could use. We move issues around in our head until we come up with a reasonable explanation rather than the truth. My relationship is bad must be his/her fault, no matter my parents hated each other and I have no idea what love means, its what’s her/his face’s issues and baggage. Will we never look in the mirror?

I recently had an encounter with someone in my past who has taken great issue with me. This person pointed out over and over again what they and their posse thought were my issues and went on to identify their rightness. Of course I played along as my human side became very active. But as I look over the incident the truth was just sitting there under the surface but under no circumstances was this person willing to see, right makes might after all. A fight I was never going to win and to allow this person the upper hand would have simply played into their very unfocused life view. That’s their business not mine. How awesome to take the time to really see rather than engage, of course I engaged first, so fuc*ing human am I still.

My teacher says that our problems come from our emotions and once triggered we then react. Like a pot needing to be stirred before it bubbles over, once we see the issue we need to look for truth, save the reacting for something that is real. Our lives are run by the amount of reaction we give all of our little and insignificant problems. Play this game when you get pissed off, if I was going to die in 6 months would this idiot and their issue even be a concern, probably not, death is the great equalizer and nothing pulls perspective like remembering your death is imminent, and it is, face it and then begin to really live.

I am often disgusted by the amount of wasted time around bull shit issues that are meaningless in the material world of constant suffering. I watch people react every chance they get which leads that person to react, then that person, before long everyone is reacting and no one remembers why. We lose our consciousness and forget our true self as soon as human natures takes center stage and begins messing with your mind and the truth, why bother. One teacher said if you stub your toe and we all hate stubbing our toe, be glad that was all the karmic adjustment that was necessary, better than breaking a hip. The world is in a state of balance you shoot off at the mouth that sentence will be back to haunt you.

For you on the karma is not real bench, if I have an accident it was just an accident, I would say look over your life and get back to me, that’s not the bank of the river denile your living on, you are swimming in its waters. Cause and effect the most base of the natural laws is kicking the hell out of everyone you see and like a truck rolling down hill without breaks its just gets faster and more powerful as it rolls and prepare yourself it’s getting ready to roll over you.

We do spiritual work to clue us in on things like this. We have to stop trying to get the upper hand over someone, more karma, we have to stop trying to look better than someone, karma, take from someone, more karma, be shitty to someone, more karma. We need to give in to the idea that the peace that passes all understanding comes when we sit in our truth and we don’t do anything to mess with it like say reacting over the idiot who just pulled out in front of you, more karma. Give in to the notion of just letting everything be but never give up on remembering who you are and who is really in charge. When it is time to react for the righteous cause you will know because the ego will not be involved. We are so much wiser than we give ourselves credit for, we need to access that wisdom and learn to shut up. Whew…

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