Pause


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To me the pause button is the most important function on the remote. I just need the movie or music to stop for a bit. I don’t need to start over. I don’t want to stop because restarting means trying to find where I was when I stopped. All I want is to pause mostly for bathroom breaks sometimes because the phone rang. I just need to pause. If I pause to long the machine will stop but at least I had the option of just pausing. It is also easy to get things going again just hit play.

Life needs a pause button. Sometimes we need to step back for a bit and really look at what’s going on. Too many times people will come to a complete stop and turn their life ship around midstream because fear of the unknown became to great. Retreat! the mind says when really you just needed to pause. A brief review of your intentions can bring the direction of your life ship back on steady course. Panic is never a good course correction idea. Which makes me think of every scary movie when the scary thing occurs and instead of being still or running for cover, they head to the basement to check the noise or run full on right into the chainsaw. Pause for a second people, let’s quit freaking out.

Now a good pause button when used allows the perspective you need to gather your wits and continue. It also will allow you to see what is real and maybe you do need to hit the stop button and restart in a new direction. Cool thing about the pause button you can hit it again and again without interrupting the flow of the narrative. This allows for careful stepping on your life path when you become unsure. Face it we all become unsure at some point. Do I leave him/her or not? Do I take this job or not? Pause take a break feel yourself into the answer, reactions make for poor choices. Pause think and continue!

Problem with some pause buttons is the endless pause. Button pushed, light flashes, endlessly… That is not helpful one must make a decision, take a stand, move forward. That is how life works,and this is how we learn by moving forward. But when fear becomes overwhelming and the apparent endless mistakes of our lives get the best of us many reach for the pause button and sit down when they should have hit the stop and restarted. Depression is a sign of a pause button gone wrong. You have to hit play to keep life going. Life lived on pause is not a life at all.

Many people will ht that button and give up on ever being able to move forward again, why bother… But life even filled with mistakes is better than a life not lived. They (who ever they are) really mean it when they say its all about the life lessons. Nothing makes you more you than having gone through the BS you have gone through and the results of having been down the hard luck road. How do your children get the strength to take on the world if you yourself live in fear with your pause button pressed afraid to go on?

So use your pause button in times of stress. Take the time you need to recharge so you know you are making good decisions. Take time to feel into your heart. Make sure the time you are spending fills your soul and remember you might need to change directions. Again if you hate your job you will take that lovely energy right back to your house for your family to enjoy, please save us all the misery. In the spiritual tradition we say do what you love and love what you do. Nothing else matters, all the details of life get taking care of one way or another. My favorite way to see things in perspective is to understand if you drop dead right now someone will be in your house, others will have your things and someone else will do your job. Life is but a drop in the bucket of time.

Never let the dissatisfaction of your life be the banner you wear. We see you bitter face. Take time to pause and make a better choice for yourself. Then hit play and live your life with passion!

 

 

 

Gettin my cry on!


imagesI have been extra sad lately. Animal rescue videos are making me cry my eyes out, returning vet videos especially the ones with kids, crying, sobbing, Oh my God what is going on! So much sadness makes walking amongst the people extra hard as my eyes get red and I can’t see, I keep my head down but frankly its hard to hide the fact you are crying, past the I have something in my eye lie.

So as I’m walking I begin to take stock in what could be going on. Then I remembered its June. June is a difficult month, my Mom died in June, and after a hard break up I went to Costa Rica in June to cry it out. I spent a month in a resort alone, as in no other guests it was off-season, just so I could scream into the ocean without anyone having to watch me suffering from heartbreak. There’s more but suffice it to say its a time fraught with reasons to cry. Mom used to call them grief surges.

In our aura are all the trapped traumas of our lives. Any emotion that has not been properly dealt with sits in the aura and will be revisited for resolution. There is a constant move in the universe for balance and unspent emotion has to be balanced or it has the possibility of turning into dis-ease or at the very least making us sick. But often we forget why we are upset at certain times thinking we are just having a bad day when the reality is much bigger and the situation an opportunity for growth.

When we remember that we are moving through a time when in previous years we have had difficulty it is very much like walking through a hologram of your life. So when I get to June my body of pain remembers all to well what happened in another June and my body of pain wants to react where the wisdom part of me wants to release this bundle of trapped energy keeping me down.

I realized I had a few things to cry about and with consciousness we can cry it out with the understanding we are releasing trapped emotion and not banking more sorrow to have to process at a later date. It was no fun to go through it the first or second or third time but through increased wisdom and the awareness that all things are as they shall be, we can cry it out leaving the energy to transform and not stagnant. There is nothing wrong with crying its a useful thing. It’s the wallowing in sorrow that’s the problem. Use a crying session brought on for whatever reason to clear your trapped emotional baggage.

Sometimes when I know its coming, the I feel sad and need to cry sensation, I will put on certain music and boom bundle of tears. I allow the tears to flow with the intention of release. Aww it feels good to cry, it feels good to get out, it just¬† doesn’t look that good and beware of dog poop because then the crying changes from sorrow to why didn’t I see that, poo on the shoe, boo!

Cry it out people, then let it go and let God deal with the rest!

Gifts, ask and ye shall receive


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I went walking by the beach this morning allowing the water to wash away my stress. I have loved walking by the ocean since I was young and being here in Santa Monica is such a great gift me. I love the Ocean.

The beach itself is mostly devoid of shells and is smooth for walking. Yesterday I had fun looking for beach glass just something to do while strolling along. Today was different as each day is. I have big things on my mind and my monkey mind can go and go. So I started chanting to keep myself present. Then I started to greet every person that I walked by half them never even looked up yet I kept going saying hi.

I started having this incredible feeling of expansion in my chest. And then I noticed the feathers. Before my Mom died she told us to look for feathers and that would the sign she was with us. Every third step there was another feather. A beach devoid of shells and rocks one feather after another, I took notice.

As I was walking feeling my mom experiencing that peace I asked for a gift thinking some beach glass would be awesome. I kept walking and there it was, a beautiful intact sand dollar. I use to collect these in Florida as a child and later in Florida you could find broken ones all the time but here I had not seen one ever. Until today. What a gift, a beautiful gift. Even small requests can be expanded as we will sometimes ask for so little when our creator desires to give us so much. Lets stay open to the possibility of greater gifts than we can ever imagine.

God is great!

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Growth and movement


IMG_1038Ahhhh, the groaning. We cannot grow without strain. We cannot grow without movement. Oh how we groan through the whole thing. Do you think we will ever get that life is about the journey. Surly we get that the grave is calling for us all eventually. Why all the groaning! Let’s jump in the ocean and let it hold us for a while.

The oceans teach us about movement and the power of the now and more importantly it teaches about non-attachment.

If you stand long enough in the edge of the water your feet get covered by sand, the surf rides up your leg, you are in it and it is simply moving around you. It has no care for you standing in its way, for it moves around you. It has no care for your feelings it absorbs them without you even being aware of it. You can walk away from the ocean and it will not miss you. The ocean supports you are you aren’t aware of it. Just like life.

The ocean accepts your trash and your praise. It allows death and life to happen in the same place at the same time. The ocean is powerful and mighty. The ocean is sometimes mild and calm. The ocean is sometimes so clear you can see to the bottom and watch your step but sometimes it is murky and you never know what just went by. Just like life.

Once in the water if you are not paying attention you will be at the mercy of the tides and swiftly washed away, the ocean isn’t here to play, it has work to do. But work with the water and you will find it invigorating and loads of splash fun, ask a kid. Just like life.

As a spiritual person we see the ocean as a representative of the collective unconscious. It holds all the secrets of life, just there under the surface. The depths of the ocean are calm cold and dark with misunderstanding and mystery. The surface blown by the wind and tossed by the currents. The ocean holds us all. Just like life.

Throw yourself a life vest and stop groaning. Wear it as a reminder that when handled properly life is about growth and movement.  With the tools found in the Divine Spiritual Wisdom life can be handled without fear or groaning. But remind yourself in life as in the ocean, if you move out to far and become fearful, be calm and relax into your life vest and breath, the current will bring you back just as the breath will bring you back to center. Struggle against life or the ocean and it will bring you down. Work with it and it will work with you. Try to understand it and you will spend hours and hours trying to do that. Just go with it and expect the ride of your life.