Sunrise meditations


This is the way the sky looks in the morning when we are at the beach at sunrise for our meditations. I have been at the training for almost 2 weeks. No television or news, no cell service, no distractions, just me and the group and the intense work we are doing. It’s hard work looking and re-looking at your self. Trying to truly see the way your mind works. Watch how it can spend endless hours making sure you hold onto some antiquated negative thought about yourself just because it’s ‘comfortable’ ¬†and you are ‘used to it’. Somehow comfortable is better than awesome, really???

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The sun begins to come up as we do our breath work and chanting. Your heart is moved. There is nothing you can do about it. While you watch the sunrise and the changing colors in the sky you notice how all at once the world is alive. You really can’t help but be moved.IMG_1236

 

In a world where labels and things are held as important and the separation that people feel from their people and their society, the idea of community stands to replace what is a valuable commodity, companionship. The unconditional love and support you find within your community what ever kind of community it is, is a necessary part of a positive life. As more and more people are alone or single by choice they will need community to stay independent. A spiritual community is a special thing as each member is there to learn, to grow and assist and like i said we all need a little assistance every now and again.

The Ocean does its magic every morning giving me a greater focus than the fatigue I feel, it brings me the grace of the Divine. I watch every morning what the creator has done, and given us. I see the light so I may see the worlds glory, I hear the waves so I may hear the mighty wisdom of the universe, I feel the wind so I may know the creator is there, everywhere.

As the sun comes up to its glory we do a special meditation called Star Pose. Doing it while watching the sun, allows the heart to expand even more making you so grateful for the day. Have a great day!

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Another training, why you ask?


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I’m taking another training and I always get asked why? Why are you taking another training? My best answer is, when do you think you have gained enough wisdom? While I have been blessed with an inquisitive mind I still love to sit with other like-minded people who are doing the same level of searching that I am. Not to mention this ones in paradise. But seriously, I do trainings for my self and my own growth. This makes me a much more effective teacher. What I learn I share and this makes training important to me.

Like the infinite nature of our Creator there is an infinite amount of wisdom to be learned. Wisdom itself is many layered. Jesus taught in parables in order for the simply minded to understand the teachings but a wise person could glean information and wisdom as well. Nothing the master did was ever one layered. Just like a true spiritual master when they teach it is layered from the simplest concept to the deepest level of understanding. We each take what we put into something.

Also I think an effective teacher works to reach a multitude of students and this makes continued learning important in order to reach everyone. It is the role of the teacher to guide the students from the dark to the light. You don’t have to be a Guru to do this work. A mother/father is an example of a guru within a family. A very important job of passing down everyday practical wisdom. Children need guidance.

I think everyone needs training from time to time. A way to boost what becomes rote. Many teachers get caught in the rut of teaching the same thing the same way all the time. Could this be the reason the church lost so many members? Each new age needs a new presentation of wisdom. In yoga we talk of the vibration, each generation has its own vibration and the effective teacher reaches that vibration by learning higher wisdom when they have the opportunity.

So no matter who you are, go get some new training. Pick up a book and increase your knowledge. Work your brain. It has been proven to slow dementia and other brain related issues by keeping it new. Learn something new and expand your mind.

Hit the delete button and free your mind!


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I have been thinking about the delete button on my computer. I can hit the delete button and everything disappears, way cool. I think we need a delete button in our heads, yes we do! Some people hold on to antiquated beliefs like a dog to a bone when what they need is a delete button to clear their thinking, reassess and change their mind. It’s not easy to convince someone of a new idea or philosophy when frankly convincing is the exact opposite of what we should be doing. If you have to convince someone of what you believe it becomes to me an act of control. I would never want that.

When I believe your idea is no longer relevant, or biased, racist, or sexist and maybe just plain in my book wrong, I really can only share my beliefs with passion, through my actions and leave you to your own devices. Which of course means hitting the delete button in your head, I hope. All of us have stores of memories, ideas, and prejudices, that just need to be deleted. New information is sometimes thought of for a while but deeply held beliefs can have a long staying power. Hit the delete button already.

It’s an under used button for the mind. Ridding yourself of the noise in your head is a good thing. When the delete button is used, you can have a fresh perspective. You can make your beliefs your own, not your fathers, or mothers, or your church. As leaders in our families, or communities, hitting the delete button every once in a while would put us all in a place of receptivity. The world is an ever-changing place, new ideas come with new information but we have to be open to it and frankly most people have cluttered minds.

I think it makes a good point for a spiritual and meditation practice. A once a day remedy for not getting stuck in a mind rut. What was true for you yesterday might not be true tomorrow. My Mom couldn’t eat onions when we were growing up so everything had to have onions removed from it. My grandma would make 2 dishes one with and one with out and since I was her daughter she figured I would have the same issue. And I felt I did until I was married and he fed me onions in my food and I about became an onion addict. I ate onions on everything in everything and I still do. I had to hit the delete button on her mandatory onion band and make up my own mind.

Think on ways you can use a delete button. Do you get mad at your partner over the same issue over and over again, time to delete that thought and try to negotiate another way to get what you want. Resistance is always a delete button issue. Why stay mad and frustrated over something you know will never change? Why waste your breath? There are more important things in life than clothes hitting the hamper and shoes in the door way.

Practicing with the delete button frees your mind. Truth is we can not control anyone they can give us the appearance of control but it just builds resentment. Try hitting the delete button when your server pisses you off, you know it’s a crap job. Try hitting the delete button when driving who cares if you got cut off. Death by drive by shooting because you finally pissed off the wrong driver is a stupid way to die.

You get what I am saying. Hit the delete button every now and again. Free your mind and the rest will follow!

 

Mental illness and family


images-2My son is bipolar, tough words to write because of the looming negative stereo type of responses I have received over the years. He is not only bipolar he also suffers from PTSD, which makes all things worse. Before he was diagnosed life was a nightmare of “why are you acting this way?” He would get in trouble and my family was less than supportive about it. The “all you are doing is enabling him,” sentence got on my last nerve, he is my child. Of course the big family secret was that bipolar was running rampant through our gene pool, information I would have loved to have so much earlier in my life. But I didn’t get to know.

What I know now is that my family secret is a lot of families secret, not to mention our beautiful children that went to war and have come back so broken and afflicted with mental illness themselves. Frankly none of us are fully able to handle this on our own. The words, It takes a village, is so much more than a buzz phrase, it is the truth. For the last 2 weeks I have been plagued with interior feelings of overwhelming sadness and red-hot anger and yesterday I tried to call my son and he didn’t answer my call or call back, then I knew. It wasn’t me at all, my boy was in trouble, I write this and my eyes fill with tears because I should have known something was up.

He had started talking of wanting to be more responsible so I could go and try to start my life again. We both know none of us can live someone elses’ life for them, we really can’t control another human. We can only lead, with our words, with our love and with our support. I hear the agony in his voice when I finally get him on the phone and it breaks my heart. He ran out of his medicine 2 weeks ago and we were all on a count down and he couldn’t reach out. So the other shoe drops and the fall out of a 2 week blow out spills onto me and my daughter and I would say his wife too, if she was emotionally even sitting in her body anymore.

There are no easy answers to this issue. There is no guarantee of long-term help when medicines that work for a while then stop. There is no running away or sending it away, God gave us this challenge as God has done to so many others. Chances are you know somebody who is suffering with some kind of brain disorder. What we can do is maintain a deep and personal relationship with the one suffering and their family. Most importantly maintaining our spiritual practice and closeness to the creator who gave us this responsibility. We all have heard God does not give us anything we can’t handle, though we certainly would like to argue that point. We can surround our loved one with the white light of consciousness, when can encourage them to take good care of their body, by eating right, getting rest which is like asking a child to sit still for 3 hours, not even close to real but sometimes it sinks in. And most importantly we can encourage each other.

So my hat is off to you, if you are like me and my daughter holding a family together. My hat is off to you who stand next to your loved when others say step away. My hat is off to every parent who had wished health for their child and watched as it was drained due to an accident, birth, or fricking war. My hat is off to those who work with the ones trying so hard to make sense of such a difficult situation that often has no end date. My hat is off to my daughter who does this job with me when she certainly doesn’t have to. I love you so much!!!

My hat is off to us all!