Birthdays


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I celebrated my birthday yesterday. Funny how people are about birthdays, for me, they have been just another day for years. That started in grade school because my birthday was right at the beginning of school. I always received school clothes for birthday presents, big surprise. It was an untimely birthday. But, all of that’s behind me now and still I wasn’t into celebrating my birthday.

Until yesterday that is. Yesterday I celebrated my birthday. Because recently my life has been hit with tragedy and loss, I needed to celebrate life. I lost my Dad, my baby grandson, and my eldest went back to jail. It was a hard patch and so close to my birthday. It felt strange but I felt I wanted to celebrate my birthday this year.

We need to celebrate life in whatever way we can because we never know when it’s the last time we will be with someone, or how far away from us our loved ones can go. Celebrating our birthdays gives us a marker to our lives and reminds that life is a gift. We have no idea what’s in store for any of us at any given time. Celebrating even through hard times helps to keep perspective about what’s important. Life is important.

Life is hard but it’s really not worth living without each other. Without celebration we will not mark our days and soon the days even out to a grey, then we live in a world devoid of passion. Celebrating our lives is working with the creative energy of God. It is being grateful and a birthday is something to be grateful for.

Every day that we reset our clock, to work on resonating with the highest vibration in meditation, it allows us the highest experiences and moves us towards our highest good. Celebrating birthdays, or any event allows the universe to deepen its work with us. We celebrate in recognition of the life we have been given and the blessings instilled in the lessons learned, paying it forward in our every thought, word and deed.

We celebrate to bring new life and new experiences to us. Life is a journey not a destination so we need to enjoy the ride even when it gets rough. Rough patches are the high sign, growth is ahead, and after celebrating the victory we get to celebrate peace.

Live your life, and celebrate its passages.

Let’s talk about the word God for a minute…


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The light in this church is a great representation of God. The light itself falls over everything and anyone. It does not choose based on race, gender or how much money you have, the light shines.

We are all very confused over the idea of God, or whatever you want to call the higher power that is running the universe.

As you know I am traveling and the one thing I have begun to ask people, is there take on God or religion. Frankly it is amazing how many people simply do not believe in a God, or a higher power of any kind. We are simply on a spinning planet having risen out of the muck, waiting to see what’s going to happen next. Wow!

I am often told to watch how I use the word God and in many of the places I teach they moved to the words, universe, light, creator(same to me), architect of the universe, just so we don’t say the word God because I guess some of you don’t want to hear it. Well let me tell you how I see it and then you can decide if there is a need to get so up in arms, over a word.

I was raised in a born again environment, harsh beliefs, believe it or you went to hell kind of thing, didn’t make sense then, doesn’t make sense now. Really this powerful God has a temper, and is judgmental to non-believers and anyone who would think to die before being saved. Oh and that entire God’s chosen people thing… SO we have all been put here but only some of us are God’s chosen, please people, it doesn’t make sense!

I learned that God can be defined in 3 aspects, G-generating, O-organizing, D- destroying, God was not a person after all, thank you God. God is a force, a verb, not a noun. God is not and has never been your ‘father’ but God is your creator, different story…

When we look at God as a force then we understand that learning and working with the Divine Spiritual Wisdom that explains the laws of the universe, its working, and how we are influenced by everything around us, makes so much sense. It is a force, a moveable force, that is directing us, moving through us, and it is more than the mass that makes up our physical body it is also that which makes us, us. We are also a force living inside a physical vessel. We are animated bodies, not just vessels, we have the capacity for thought, consciousness, God in action all of that outside of our bodies.

The G-O-D words or the principle behind the word God allows us the knowing that we cannot understand the force called God. We will not ever understand the need to destroy in order to recreate, none of us wants to see death at the hands of evil or death by natural disaster it is too hard for us, yet it is part of the GOD force. We all know the new can only come at the destruction of what was.

When we understand that God is a force then we can learn to work with the force, it can be a feel good thing, and we can feel this great force around us, you know the chills you get sometimes when your lover is near, or the sudden awareness that something is up, that is the force of God working with you.

The cool thing is, the force of God is completely unconditional and available for everyone, headscarf, bald head, on your knees,  or silently praying every minute, or ignoring it altogether. This force is available and frankly effecting us all. The wind on your face, the sun in the sky, the pull of the moon, the repeating cycles of nature, are all sure signs of an organized universe given to us, for our comfort and growth. Not just yours, everyone’s.

Its time to get away from the label thing or even the trying to name things beyond our comprehension thing, some things we will never understand, ask the quantum physics guys, some things are just miraculous, ask doctors, nurses and every mother who has ever given birth. But to think we humans are it, when the GOD force is defined as infinite, then we as finite creatures will always have a hard time understanding it. But when we open ourselves to our own infinite nature, given to us by the animating force of the universe, you know G-generating, O-orginizing, D-destroying God, then we will one day all be on the same page of the book of life, knowing without a doubt that we are the GOD force’s children after all.

Power of a woman


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Eventually women will realize that we need to stand united and not divided. The days of walking over the heads of other women to get something you deem worthy, are over! The days of bullying other women is OVER! We will only succeed standing together. I am tired of power plays, negative back biting bullying behavior. I am ready for a world of caring humans.

My daughter gave birth on Monday to her second child and the birth was nearly as traumatic as the first. Most of the trauma turned to drama because no one wanted to stand up, take responsibility, or even just make a decision. I am talking hospital staff here, you know the ones getting paid to care. WHAT! And then my spiritual community chimed in with their drama, REALLY! I am trying to do a job here!

We as women have been waiting for the day men return to the head of the table and support us on our journey of returning to our own power. But we have been waiting longer for women to return to power. Learning to speak up for ourselves and our families and giving voice to our children is our charge. It is a difficult and hard world, if we are not together who do you think will suffer? Who is suffering? Why are women going after each other? What is the only possible outcome for that kind of behavior? Look around.

The world suffers when women are not doing their job. We need to be vocal about our needs, really really vocal about the needs of our children. But most importantly we need to quit thinking someone is trying to take from us or hurt us, we are all trying to get to the same place. And on the other hand there are those women who are fighting us on every front, stop already! If you still believe there is some kind of prize for coming in first place, figure it out, there will always be someone coming up behind you and they too, want what you have. We are best served finding where are gifts, and talents can be best used to further the development of humanity. Putting the needs of others in front of your own selfish desires. Power hungry humans need to check themselves.

I am upset today and sorely disappointed in a number of women. Women standing under the umbrella of caring, concern, spirituality, pretending to be something they are not. We can see you! We are looking at you now and soon you will be best served to start doing your job. This world isn’t clearing itself for no reason. Even the Earth mother is getting tired of it and frankly

CAN YOU BLAME HER!!!!!!!!

It is and always will be God’s will that has dominion over the earth, better believe it!

And boom there it is!

 

the power and woes of being a parent


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I agree. I remember when I found out I was pregnant the first time. Still a teenager I had decided to keep my baby and do what I felt was the right thing. Fast forward 34 years and I am still struggling with this boy as he struggles with the disability of his bipolar condition he lets over take him when the darkness gets ever so dark. I may not have been prepared to be a mom, and frankly who is, but what I found out and not through my own family is that having a child is very much an extension of self. What he is I am and I lead him so he may know which way to go and most certainly which way not to go. The eternal hope of the parent. If I don’t do it, who will?

Problem with parenting is that there can be a number of others who begin to contribute to the wellbeing of your child, other parents, teachers, peers, and mentors. SO a strong parent voice is the best defense to others who would speak before they think or those who speak from the head rather than the heart. SO many of our children are hurt in their heart by words spoken to them by a person who was to love them unconditionally. It happens and next shall be apologizes, words not often spoken from a parent to a child, I am sorry! We teach them we as parents are not perfect, just striving to be our best, so they will know the same, we don’t expect perfection just the best they can be. Wisdom people, they need wisdom!

Having children will be hands down the hardest thing I have done and will frankly be the only job I stand before God beaming with pride as I say I did my best God. I made my children’s well-being my guiding light. I will hope to do this for my grandchildren as well. Let’s do this for all of the children. Smile at the children you see so they will know they are seen. Listen to the children so they know they will be heard and love the children well so that love may grow in their hearts making them loving children of God!

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imagesMy daughter had her baby on Saturday. A beautiful new life came to us and not without great fanfare. My daughter was quite uncomfortable at the end of her pregnancy as most women are, and we had wanted the baby to come early as it seemed the easiest way for Natalie to be comfortable again. I gave her a mudra to help bring on labor and as if on cue into labor she went. Everything about the delivery was as difficult as her pregnancy and I knew this new little girl had big things planned here on earth. Her arrival was anything but normal. In one brief moment it went from being a regular delivery to they both were in trouble, a mothers worse nightmare.

My daughters temperature was climbing with the intensity of her labor and the baby was not faring much better. Her heartbeat was erratic which indicated she may have had an infection or Natalie had one they couldn’t tell and the first round of antibiotics did nothing to slow the fever. Then the ob doctor finally arrives and I knew by the look on her face we weren’t in a happy space. She wanted to say something without saying it, “we could go on and keep trying to push”, the baby was just rocking back and forth and not making much progress towards her birth, “or, we could…” and there they were the words I didn’t want to hear, “we could do a c-section and get the baby out”.

Can there be a decision made after such a sentence, get the baby out, it was tense and in another moment I had to encourage my daughter to do the hardest thing, to give up and give it over, to God, to the doctors. I stayed with her to go through surgery as her husband was so overwhelmed I couldn’t imagine him having to do it. They made me wait outside of the operating room and I knew something was up, and there was. They had surrounded her so quickly I can barely remember it, just that sense of knowing something was wrong, I prayed a prayer that could be heard throughout all of eternity for my daughter who I had no idea was in distress unable to communicate her needs, I was far away from her on the other side of a door.

They had to put her to sleep, so uncool to see your daughter so far away from herself while her body was getting ready to have a baby, so uncool. And in a flash there she was, they pulled that baby out of her so fast. I saw them place the baby on Natalie and she never cried. They moved her and there she laid in her infant incubator so small, not crying, not feeling right, her feet and hands white, I was so lost for a moment in a sense away from myself because of the stress. My daughter didn’t get to see her baby born but I did, she didn’t get to be with her baby right after birth but I did, and then I prayed. I prayed such a prayer as I have never prayed before, everything scary had to stop, it had to stop, everything had to be ok, then it had to be fine, then it had to be better, I called upon on God, I called upon all that is in the creative universe to make it better, to fix it, my granddaughter and my daughter, just fix it, I said in my loudest sternest voice to the heavens.  I put my hand on my little granddaughters little chest encouraging her and couldn’t even look over at my daughter who was still so far away from her body, so I looked at my granddaughter pushing my life force into her, then there she was, looking out her eyes, moving the blood through her body, there she was.

I had to leave the hospital soon after they brought the baby up for her father to see. I had hurt my back helping Natalie in labor, I was in pain and frankly I needed to cry, big fat tears of horror and joy. My daughter has gone through an incredible karmic journey to bring this girl to the earth for her new life but I get the sense from her this is certainly not her first…

And someday her mother and I will share this story with her. A story that speaks to the pain of being human, the pain of being born, and through this journey we learn it is indeed a good thing to be born, a good thing to be a human, and a great thing watching new life beginning again.