Meditate more!


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The path of the human is that of constant meditation. Whatever your mind is  focused on becomes your meditation. Focused on what you don’t have, focused on being to fat or thin, big or small, rich or poor, all of those thoughts become your meditation and your reality. The truth is we are all meditating all of the time. We either fill our heads with directed thoughts of positivity, healthy visualizations or we are drowning in our thoughts of lack, unhappiness and whose fault is this anyway. The smart person puts the words meditate more in to their brain and then uses their tools to direct their thoughts and at the very least learns to quiet the mind if for no other reason than to give ourselves a break from the running commentary going on in our heads.

Parmahansa Yogananda said that the best meditation was to keep the word God on the tip of your tongue, in your head repeat the word God over and over again, God God God God God, every second. He said that the word God is a word of high power and vibration and that through repeating the word we could bring this higher vibration into our selves. Resonating a higher vibration increases light into the physical vessel bringing vitality and prosperity. Now I tell that to people, eyes glass over, heard it a thousand times, be spiritual and something will happen. They turn and continue walking down their road of darkness and insecurity.

Meditate more! Our thoughts of lack and rehearsed pain growing stronger with each repetition create a wall in our minds, a wall of our own making. This wall makes sure our lives are full of lack and a repeat of the constant pain we keep rehearsing, keeping the light out and the darkness of ignorance in. Changing our thinking to include the repetition of a higher vibrating thought or word lifts us from the burrowed thought channels carved in our minds. We can create new pathways that lift our mood and change our lives. That’s right, just with the repetition of a word.

Meditate more! I talk to spiritual people all of the time. it becomes rote to say we mediate to become one with God and the world around us yet these same people who know better are playing the same sound track in their head not truly understanding what it is to be one with God. That sentence scares them this ultimate truth that we are one with God. Meditate more! Because it’s the truth our true and rightful journey is not towards some earthly goal, it is to know with certainty that we are walking in a vessel containing the original spark of light and life, that is God, it’s right their in your heart, really right now, it’s inside of you! Cool right!

Meditate more! Make your thinking world more of your friend. This was the intent of meditation to regain control of our mind. The brain we can see and chemically change with pills, but the mind is a wild animal that invades your world, never seen, constantly controlling you. Yet, through right meditation it can be tamed and can I hear an amen!

Meditate more using words of higher vibration, get weird about saying the word God, say love, say light, say Jesus, Buddha, find a word that works for you and try it for a few days and see if the constant repetition of a higher vibration word helps move your thinking to a more restful and peaceful state.

Change your life, Meditate more!

Pause


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To me the pause button is the most important function on the remote. I just need the movie or music to stop for a bit. I don’t need to start over. I don’t want to stop because restarting means trying to find where I was when I stopped. All I want is to pause mostly for bathroom breaks sometimes because the phone rang. I just need to pause. If I pause to long the machine will stop but at least I had the option of just pausing. It is also easy to get things going again just hit play.

Life needs a pause button. Sometimes we need to step back for a bit and really look at what’s going on. Too many times people will come to a complete stop and turn their life ship around midstream because fear of the unknown became to great. Retreat! the mind says when really you just needed to pause. A brief review of your intentions can bring the direction of your life ship back on steady course. Panic is never a good course correction idea. Which makes me think of every scary movie when the scary thing occurs and instead of being still or running for cover, they head to the basement to check the noise or run full on right into the chainsaw. Pause for a second people, let’s quit freaking out.

Now a good pause button when used allows the perspective you need to gather your wits and continue. It also will allow you to see what is real and maybe you do need to hit the stop button and restart in a new direction. Cool thing about the pause button you can hit it again and again without interrupting the flow of the narrative. This allows for careful stepping on your life path when you become unsure. Face it we all become unsure at some point. Do I leave him/her or not? Do I take this job or not? Pause take a break feel yourself into the answer, reactions make for poor choices. Pause think and continue!

Problem with some pause buttons is the endless pause. Button pushed, light flashes, endlessly… That is not helpful one must make a decision, take a stand, move forward. That is how life works,and this is how we learn by moving forward. But when fear becomes overwhelming and the apparent endless mistakes of our lives get the best of us many reach for the pause button and sit down when they should have hit the stop and restarted. Depression is a sign of a pause button gone wrong. You have to hit play to keep life going. Life lived on pause is not a life at all.

Many people will ht that button and give up on ever being able to move forward again, why bother… But life even filled with mistakes is better than a life not lived. They (who ever they are) really mean it when they say its all about the life lessons. Nothing makes you more you than having gone through the BS you have gone through and the results of having been down the hard luck road. How do your children get the strength to take on the world if you yourself live in fear with your pause button pressed afraid to go on?

So use your pause button in times of stress. Take the time you need to recharge so you know you are making good decisions. Take time to feel into your heart. Make sure the time you are spending fills your soul and remember you might need to change directions. Again if you hate your job you will take that lovely energy right back to your house for your family to enjoy, please save us all the misery. In the spiritual tradition we say do what you love and love what you do. Nothing else matters, all the details of life get taking care of one way or another. My favorite way to see things in perspective is to understand if you drop dead right now someone will be in your house, others will have your things and someone else will do your job. Life is but a drop in the bucket of time.

Never let the dissatisfaction of your life be the banner you wear. We see you bitter face. Take time to pause and make a better choice for yourself. Then hit play and live your life with passion!

 

 

 

Gettin my cry on!


imagesI have been extra sad lately. Animal rescue videos are making me cry my eyes out, returning vet videos especially the ones with kids, crying, sobbing, Oh my God what is going on! So much sadness makes walking amongst the people extra hard as my eyes get red and I can’t see, I keep my head down but frankly its hard to hide the fact you are crying, past the I have something in my eye lie.

So as I’m walking I begin to take stock in what could be going on. Then I remembered its June. June is a difficult month, my Mom died in June, and after a hard break up I went to Costa Rica in June to cry it out. I spent a month in a resort alone, as in no other guests it was off-season, just so I could scream into the ocean without anyone having to watch me suffering from heartbreak. There’s more but suffice it to say its a time fraught with reasons to cry. Mom used to call them grief surges.

In our aura are all the trapped traumas of our lives. Any emotion that has not been properly dealt with sits in the aura and will be revisited for resolution. There is a constant move in the universe for balance and unspent emotion has to be balanced or it has the possibility of turning into dis-ease or at the very least making us sick. But often we forget why we are upset at certain times thinking we are just having a bad day when the reality is much bigger and the situation an opportunity for growth.

When we remember that we are moving through a time when in previous years we have had difficulty it is very much like walking through a hologram of your life. So when I get to June my body of pain remembers all to well what happened in another June and my body of pain wants to react where the wisdom part of me wants to release this bundle of trapped energy keeping me down.

I realized I had a few things to cry about and with consciousness we can cry it out with the understanding we are releasing trapped emotion and not banking more sorrow to have to process at a later date. It was no fun to go through it the first or second or third time but through increased wisdom and the awareness that all things are as they shall be, we can cry it out leaving the energy to transform and not stagnant. There is nothing wrong with crying its a useful thing. It’s the wallowing in sorrow that’s the problem. Use a crying session brought on for whatever reason to clear your trapped emotional baggage.

Sometimes when I know its coming, the I feel sad and need to cry sensation, I will put on certain music and boom bundle of tears. I allow the tears to flow with the intention of release. Aww it feels good to cry, it feels good to get out, it just  doesn’t look that good and beware of dog poop because then the crying changes from sorrow to why didn’t I see that, poo on the shoe, boo!

Cry it out people, then let it go and let God deal with the rest!

Gifts, ask and ye shall receive


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I went walking by the beach this morning allowing the water to wash away my stress. I have loved walking by the ocean since I was young and being here in Santa Monica is such a great gift me. I love the Ocean.

The beach itself is mostly devoid of shells and is smooth for walking. Yesterday I had fun looking for beach glass just something to do while strolling along. Today was different as each day is. I have big things on my mind and my monkey mind can go and go. So I started chanting to keep myself present. Then I started to greet every person that I walked by half them never even looked up yet I kept going saying hi.

I started having this incredible feeling of expansion in my chest. And then I noticed the feathers. Before my Mom died she told us to look for feathers and that would the sign she was with us. Every third step there was another feather. A beach devoid of shells and rocks one feather after another, I took notice.

As I was walking feeling my mom experiencing that peace I asked for a gift thinking some beach glass would be awesome. I kept walking and there it was, a beautiful intact sand dollar. I use to collect these in Florida as a child and later in Florida you could find broken ones all the time but here I had not seen one ever. Until today. What a gift, a beautiful gift. Even small requests can be expanded as we will sometimes ask for so little when our creator desires to give us so much. Lets stay open to the possibility of greater gifts than we can ever imagine.

God is great!

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Disappointment is a bitter pill, don’t swallow it


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Awww disappointment! Receiving or experiencing disappointment is a tough thing for us humans. As soon as it happens it can become a cascading event of bad feelings whether the disappointment is coming from something that was done or left undone, it just doesn’t matter it becomes a doorway to negativity. One that must stay shut. Studying spirituality being religious any of the good feeling projects on the Earth move into a fog of forgetting when we experience disappointment. We become at once lost in our emotions of attachment and I am owed, I was used, I will never get what they get. All part of the game of life and learning what is actually important. Being, right? Being, being a being, not an emotional monster that can’t think straight or stay on the righteous path creating negativity and karma that has to be repaid.

Disappointment is part of life unfortunately, but its a great life lesson. When we expect people to be a certain way that is judgement. When we expect God to treat us a certain way, that is expectation, when we expect those around us not to hurt us, that is attachment. The feelings and actions of those around us is their karma and part of their life journey. Most of the time disappointment is about wanting what you want when you want it. News flash, not going to happen. The best we can do is stay in a place of neutrality understanding there is a bigger story going on than what we understand. You know what they say hindsight is 20/20. There is a reason for that. Life teaches that, that which we don’t understand is something to let go of and let God deal with. Like tragedies and horror on the planet, dear God take it away but for so many hard-headed humans terror and horror is the only language that can change them. God’s work is way passed our understanding.

What I do know and have learned is that when we walk in faith of a greater story, then we can be assured of a greater ending than what we see or are capable of seeing. Jesus spoke parable after parable on the unfairness of life from a human perspective. A wealthy man hires workers for his field and the last hired receive the same pay as the first, they scream unfair we worked longer and the landowner says we made an agreement. When we look around us and do comparisons of any kind is to put yourself in a dangerous position of thinking you know. One has to remember no one knows the mind of God. The universe is also always in a state of balance nothing goes unnoticed.

Disappointment is a false thing, a mind trap meant to keep us in the dark of emotional turmoil when the answer is simply be glad for all that good things that happen to those around you. Be glad that you see God at work. Be happy and uplifting, for those without Divine spiritual awareness see little outside of their eyes than that which benefits them. When we accept with grace everything that is happening to us in our lives, taking steps when necessary to correct that which is wrong towards that which is right, disappointment becomes a great teacher. Do not be a judge unless you are yourself without sin. When the master spoke of how hard it was for a rich man to enter the kingdom of heaven, he was speaking of our inability to be grateful for what we have and who gave it to us because when we are not believe me that which is in charge will know it and balance will be restored.

When disappointment comes, breath in, let it wash over you like a wave and then release it. You know the saying let go and let God! Soon disappointment will leave and your blessings will reappear. Spend a day blessing everyone and watch how it changes your perspective, you know your blessed, that’s air your breathing right? You are alive, that is a blessing!

let’s talk about love


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Let’s talk about love.

Full Definition of LOVE

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a (1) :  strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties <maternal love for a child> (2) :  attraction based on sexual desire :  affection and tenderness felt by lovers (3) :  affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests <love for his old schoolmates>

b :  an assurance of affection <give her my love>

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:  warm attachment, enthusiasm, or devotion <love of the sea>
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a :  the object of attachment, devotion, or admiration <baseball was his first love>

b (1) :  a beloved person :  darling —often used as a term of endearment (2) British —used as an informal term of address

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a :  unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another: as (1) :  the fatherly concern of God for humankind (2) :  brotherly concern for others

b :  a person’s adoration of God

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:  a god or personification of love
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:  an amorous episode :  love affair
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:  the sexual embrace :  copulation
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:  a score of zero (as in tennis)
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capitalized Christian Science :  god
All of that they say is love, with sexual desire as number 2, funny isn’t it. There is a misconception about love I fear, a full on thought of love as a warm and fuzzy experience. We have people saying they love each other even when they don’t or using the word love as a, I like you right now, kind of thing. We talk about God’s love but if you mention any form of God’s anger they will quickly change the subject. How do they define that as love?
My mother and I had a very difficult relationship and really my mother did not have a good definition for love. Her mother gave her away as a child so how could she see or understand love? For her love hurt. So that was how it was instilled in me and frankly that was my experience of love, completely condition, you were loved if you were worthy of love. I just didn’t get it until my children were born and later when my son traveled a dark road I realized there was nothing that could move my love from him.
Just a few days ago I was in the space of a woman speaking of her difficulty with her son. I spoke as a mother of such a difficult boy, but she quickly cut me off telling me her son was a heroin user and thus couldn’t be her son any longer. My heart broke for her and her son because mine was too. At 18 she sends him away. Where is her love and why was her fear more important? When my boy spun out of control I grabbed him even harder. I know that love is gross and disgusting sometimes, horrifying and scary. Think of the worse person you can think of, gross horrible, God loves that person. God does not see love as a warm and fuzzy thing. For God love is a verb. Big lesson for us all, especially the judgmental.
I once told my daughter-in-law she had to learn the mother voice. It is the way a mother can stop their child on a dime as they are walking into danger. When I was a young mother my voice could penetrate my children, ask my 33-year-old bi-polar son, it stills has the same effect even today. As a mother I instilled the fear of God, ok me, into them it was my way of letting them know my love was strong enough to step in front of a train or go to hell and get them if need be. Same as God’s love for humanity, the disgusting humans who would hurt others are still loved by God.
Let’s redefine love as the unconditional acceptance of that in you which is greater than your small human self. God loves us just as we are and as we realize that love, our hearts open and we are never the same. To love a disgusting human will allow you to see the child in them, that being that has felt unloved and uncared for and under the watchful eye of love will turn around. Every human desires love, true love, unconditional love. But make no mistake I can love you while screaming at you, God can love you while pulling your life apart. No one said love was always sweet but true love is such a balm for the heart even the ignorant know that.
Go on and show love to your people, be the one who loves “that” person though everyone else will send them away. Love with such a heart that can’t be moved. Now that is power, that is love.

All is well


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I am at a very interesting point in my pursuit of a spiritual path, a path of truth. I have gotten to that point where the knowledge I have found is working its way into my daily life and without thinking I am not reacting but accessing and then acting. Not all of the time, way to human for that, yet…

It is unrealistic to think we will not get pissed off. Even the most enlightened being you can think of is going to get overwhelmed with this play called humanity. Humans are as they are and really we cannot expect any different, said with such disappointment…

But, all is well.

Now here is another idea that can help me past the bullshit I see. I am a doer. If I see an injustice I will speak up. When someone mistreats their child in front of me, I say something. When a partner belittles their partner in front of me, its my eyes they see while their partner is looking down. I have not always thought all is well. As a matter of fact I have thought humanity way past well and sick as hell.

That is a view that doesn’t see beyond to creators will. My mistake was in thinking that free will had a bigger role than it actually does. We are all free to fu*k up our lives as much as we wish and for lots of people it’s the suffering they endure because of their fu*k ups that finally turns them towards the light of a spiritual path. But what had been lost in translation is that everything that is happening is happening as planed. Just as Jesus told Peter he would deny him 3 times, Peter was shocked, “who me”? But when the time came Peter’s free will did deny Jesus 3 times. It was part of the story all along.

When we who walk a spiritual path make every step with the divine in mind we are doing God’s work. It can be a hardship to turn and look at humanity that seems hell-bent on destroying everything on God’s green earth and the inhabitants there in, it becomes for me a need to wear blinders before I am screaming, “destroy us, we know exactly what we are doing and just don’t give a shit anymore”.

I wonder how the movie Noah is going to do? But God made a promise not to do that again so I guess I am going to have to get the phrase all is well firmly planted in my head. God wishes us to look through eyes that know all is well. Look around long enough, live long enough, suffer long enough, and you will get that all is well. Though it sometimes doesn’t look like it or feel like it or even remotely seem like it, all is well.

The big creator in the sky has this story already locked down and it seems God is not into tragic outcomes though a good story always has plenty of tragedy in it. But like a good Hollywood movie usually a good outcome is assured, or frankly who would go. Even in the worst of circumstances we find a silver lining to stories and events and learn that indeed all is well.

It’s a statement of faith. It’s a statement of maturity. It’s a statement given by God. Can’t argue with that. So when Oprah asks me what I know for sure, I am going to say, what I know for sure and beyond any doubt but will stumble to remember over and over again, is that all is well. All is well!