We are starting again

We are starting again

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There are many reasons to write a blog, one being so you can be seen and adored by fans for your wit and so-called wisdom. This is not that kind of blog, as a matter of fact, this will be the kind of blog that you will either desire to read or you will burn this connection, heretic witch…oh well I say.

This is a coming to Jesus minute.

Something I have found hard for the last 11 years of my life is the absence of wisdom, and a complete lack of desire for reality. I mean for myself. The fantasy of our world is a much easier lie to tell ourselves, helping us to sleep at night, keeping us asleep during the day. You may even think that you want change or for things to be different. You still think you have control over outcomes. You think you live in reality, the real world, where shit is real and you can be killed, eaten, taken advantage of. That you have real choice.

Oh did you think you were actually awake, and in reality. Who’s reality…

No baby this is a dream…

There is no advancement in life without this knowledge. Sorry, you who think you know truth.

You are asleep at the wheel of your life. You feel alive, I did too. It seems like we are living in a reality. I mean really don’t tell me that last 5 day migraine was a figment of my imagination, I wanted to die, slit my throat, bleed out, it was as real as the letters you are reading right now.

Are these letters real or does your mind tell you these dashes mean something? Who interprets your words for you, who or what gives them meaning? These are the big questions.

You remember the song, row row row your boat gently down the stream, merrily merrily merrily merrily, life is but a dream.

We are living in a dream. Your mind as an advanced computer has given your eyes something to perceive and a world to find your way in and through. Apparently we have been tossed down here and now have to figure it out, in an eat or be eaten world.

Humanity will never move past the horror we are trapped in until someone, somewhere, comes out of the dream, kicking and screaming, trying to wake everyone up.

Guess what? I’ll be doing that. I have no idea of the name of the one who just through me out of my dream. The pain of that 5, 6 ,7 day headache drove me to an edge, no returning from that. Once you see differently you can never readjust your eyes to lies.

We are living in a lie, convinced of a material world that has no real backing, it’s an illusion, and believe me as I threw up my guts until my stomach threatened to follow I no more believed this is an illusion than you do right now. So convinced that your pain is real, your suffering is real, so was I.

Nope and wrong. Pain just happens to be one of the ways spirit talks to me, a human with a difficult past, seeminglyunloving uncaring parents and no real support in the real world. All of my power came from a belief that I had for myself. I had to get hard before they went at me again, I learned all tricks to side step, pain, any pain, emotional, physical, spiritual.

So when I fell in LA this last trip I already knew my head would respond. I get headaches like some people get indigestion or get pissed, a headache is always just a thought away, my head gives me buckets of pain.

Because I have believed I am the creator of myself. No one can help, no one cares frankly, and I’m living in a material world and I am a material girl. So many lies.

I am no more material than any of you are, your dream of reality is as powerful as mine was.

So I will lead a new charge. I am done swimming in a world of my own making. It sucks here. My body thinks it’s the boss of me and due to DNA weakness my body is a fu*king nightmare a lot of the time. So time to turn the channel and tune into a different version of reality.

In other words, I, during an experience of unimaginable pain, that I was not only forced to live through, but no amount of drugs would remove me from it. That suffering world be mine baby, all mine, and mine to fix, which I fu*king did, victory arms.

It is said that creator will give us know more than we can handle, or maybe its more important to say that the greater your intelligence, and willingness to change or see clearly, creator will assist in clearing the cob webs from your mind, the film in front of your eyes, and release you from the cage your heart is trapped in. Using any and all means available.

Stay with me, and I’ll explain it all, as it was and is revealed to me,

you know, heretic witch that I am.

 

 

make a decision, be a dreamweaver


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At some point we have to make the decision that defines our life. We have to chose to step over the line of complacency and accept responsibility for where we are at even if we have been stuck in a rut for years. The greatest act of freedom is in acting free. But you are not free if the voice in your head is not yours and the path you are following was dictated to you not the path of your heart.

Life is scary and none of us want to be caught with our pants down. No one likes to fail, or look stupid in anyway but it is also the reason we become stuck. You must be willing to fail in order to move towards what you truly want for yourself and your life. Do you want it written she lived but she was scared and never did realize her dreams. Its not easy to be a dreamweaver.

We are born with gifts and talents, as is everyone you see. All of us were born with potential. Those who have succeeded listened to the voice of their soul way over the voices of the naysayers of “who do you think you are?” and became their hearts desire. We as humans are willing to settle way to quick. Life is hard, get over it and pursue your dream.

The road in front of you is going to fork over and over again. It will present opportunities for growth and healing and it will be your choice to heed the call or stay wishy washy in your approach to life, boo hooing to God for leaving you behind. We are God’s children, not God’s spoiled brats, God expects us to live our life not follow someone’s life or be told by another. We were to engage our own thinking mind and as we realize our potential we will know what a gift we have been given.

Make a decision to be better. Dream of your life not of your horror. Project a future of happiness and fulfillment. Your future is coming anyway so make a decision to work with flow and the force that is God. As you move past your victim thinking you will open to the field of possibilities that you are walking through each day. That field is full of potential, creative energy looking for someone to serve, might as well be you!

Quit being thrown around by life. Quit allowing that broken person in you to have a voice, enough already. Make a decision to walk in faith believing in better days. Make a decision not to be so negative. What you change about yourself will be the change that affects the your entire family. It happened to mine.

You are a walking ball of potential. You are carrying inside of you the power that once ignited will change your life. Make a decision to walks towards it. Learn how to be silent so that the voice of soul can be heard.

Make a decision and be a dreamweaver!