What if…


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These are difficult days as we Americans walk towards a presidential election that could be seen as most embarrassing and at the very least it feels as if the people are not realizing the truth of what is going on. The name calling, finger wagging, who said what, and who did what, will not matter as soon as one of them is in office. We have to face it, big business in America is about money, power, and greed, and this election proves it is moving right in front of our faces. What use to be hidden behind closed doors is now out in the open if we would just pay attention.

There is not a one of us who have not tried to reduce their taxes, said stupid things, did what we felt was ok when we bent the law to our desires. Been on the phone in your car lately? Drive over the speed limit lately? Told your partner a lie, or worse your kids? I could go on and on. How about you without sin cast the first stone!

At this time it would be best if we got over the actions of three-year old’s and realize what might happen if one or the other get into office and people one of them most assuredly will. We need to clear the veil in front of our eyes and see.

Both of these candidates speak of the deterioration of what was once a free society. What if we began to remember that most all of us came from immigrant families? What if most of us stopped listening to the finger wag of blame and demanded truth for a change? What if we demanded truth above all and then choose the candidate that reflected our values?

Here’s one for you, what if we remembered that we are all lying about something, hiding something, or simply choosing not to look into our own shadows? I see people ready to point at someones else’s sin but can’t seem to see the curtain of sin veiling their eyes.

This is not an excuse for sinning or wrong doing or a get out of jail free card. This is the recognition that we have all done something along the lines of what we are accusing the candidates of having done. Read personal emails at work lately? Done some shopping while on the clock?

None of us are without sin. None of us are any better than the other truthfully. Just like you cannot be a little pregnant you can’t be a little sinner.

Pick the one who you know is not going to be reactive and throw a fit if something doesn’t go their way, somewhere in the world. Pick the one who is going to have our countries best interest at heart and I don’t mean which one wants to be the most powerful person but understands the responsibility of being in the most powerful person in the world. Pick the one who thinks first rather than mouths off and apologizes. Pick the one who has a good head on their shoulder not the best pant suit or best hair, or the one who understands fidelity in a partnership. The one who wins will be the one representing us, who are you?

What if we all decided to do the right thing rather than the thing that makes us right?

Almost done


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How do you write about those times in your life that push you so hard that you can hear your back breaking under the pressure. I for one get extremely tired of it. But it completely speaks to what this last 2 years have been for me and I am almost done. Done with the bull shit, done with falseness, done with fake spirituality, done with lies, done with manipulators, done, done and done.

What is with women who will beat an idea, hope or dream to death? “It will work, he will change, she will do what she said, they will keep their promises”, done, done and done. No they won’t, nor will he/she/they ever.

A human reveals their truth easily but often through rose colored glasses we refuse to see, or acknowledge what we instinctively know, and then we will walk right into a glass door all the while pretending this isn’t who they revealed themselves to be.

I’ve been teaching about self responsibility as long as I can remember and here I stand having denied my own truth. I gave away my power and lessons learned are having to be relearned. Thank God for our brains! Through my own volition I can make mistakes and correct them as often as I need to, that’s life. That’s why we are on a practice planet working at being human. But it doesn’t change that I am done dealing with this.

We are at a collective time of hardship on our planet, end times and all of that. We must have our eyes open and our hearts and minds engaged and their-in lies the problem. When life gets tough we close our eyes and ears singing lalalalalala I can’t hear you, so its not real. We spend time fooling ourselves until it is written on our face or reveled in our sickness and/or broken relationships.

Look up, Listen up, for the truth is there to see and is being sung for us all to hear.

This is not an easy ride; people are hurting, people are dying, hearts are being broken and lives are being changed forever. I am almost done.

After the death of my grandson my life was never going to be the same again because I would never be able to think on my pathetic weakness without remembering the horror my daughter had to endure. I allowed weakness to overtake me and hide the truth that was in front of my face. I had made a tactical error and trusted the untrustworthy. I had to face the lies I was telling myself. I leaned on myself rather than turning to God, the higher power that has always lead me.

My mistake, and I am done.

 

testing mother’s love


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Just to be a part of the world right now is a mighty test to my mothering self.

I am a mother and grandmother, it is a job I stumbled into, many many moons ago. It is one I hold with pride, dignity, and it is and will be, hands down, the hardest job of my life. In every minute there is something happening to the kids or the grandkids, they are constantly testing my love. Asking for this, needing that, they are constantly testing my love.

Am I ok, not ok, Are you proud of me, Am I doing alright? We ask and ask because we want to know, Are we ok, Are we doing alright? They want to know. They are constantly testing my love.

Even in the dark days of horror and drugs and screaming and fighting I stood there, never moved, I am the mama, they were constantly testing my love.

In the sad days of loss and divorce and life will never be the same, I stood there never wavered, We are ok, we are doing alright! They were constantly testing my love.

When they were seperated from me by meanspirited behavior that sought to take me from my children, it was worse, they asked and asked, are we ok, are we doing alright? They were testing my love after I had been removed from them. I never wavered. I never moved. I was always right there. They needed to test my love.

So many years later and testing goes on, Are we ok, Are we doing alright? A mother’s job is never done and the testing of a mamas love unending, because I am an ocean. You can test me and push me, I am a force that can’t be moved easily, but I can easily move over you.

By pain or might I am a force that can’t be moved. I stand in the stead of the father who resides in the useen world, I see what they cannot. They are constantly testing my love because my love overflows for them and they can. They can test me and test me because…

It’s what I do to God, Are you there, am I ok, Am I doing alright?  I am constantly testing God’s love. As I am a mama containing infinite love I stand beside the one who has that same love for me, for as I am tested, I am testing and together we learn that we are protected, guided, and lead right where we need to be.

test my mothers love and I will wrap my big arms you and love you up, test me all you want, my love for you cannot be moved,

because the one I test has never let me down. I am held so I can hold you!

 

 

Judge much


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Why are people still judging other people? Why aren’t we first learning to understand, be truly informed, exercising a non judgmental non reactionary way of being? Educated action rather than idiotic reaction!

It is often hard to understand other people. Who are they, where do they come, why do they believe the way they do? The word other being a starting point, we consider people ‘other’ from our selves because of the differences and thus the judgement begins. A She says, “He is not me, he does not know me, he wants to take from me, he wants to hurt me,” and the he says, “she is not me, she does not know me, she wants to take from me, she wants to hurt me.” Change the pronouns same story different day.

Maybe no one wants to hurt anyone and everyone would like to just be ok.

We judge the “others” because we think we know, because we are afraid, because we think something bad is going to happen and when it does we know who to blame.

Right now you can’t talk about anything because you will run into judgement everywhere.

Want to save the children, you are letting terrorists into the country

Want to send money, you are funding terrorism

Want to open your doors, you are giving away our resources

People who judge are very righteous in the reason for the judgement. Finger wagging and responsibility avoided, brain shut off from reason.

If you want to be a part of the change you wish to see in the world at least for the next few weeks, then start by limiting your judgements. If you are finger wagging about things going on halfway around the world from you, and the only source of info is tv, get some more info.

Get educated if you want to fly a judgement flag, know what you are talking about and remember beyond anything else,

Judge not lest ye be judged!

 

Kindness of strangers


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There is no way to tell where a person is from just by looking. If you are in a big city anywhere on the planet it has become harder and harder to see who is who and what language they might speak. Having words of any kind on your shirt doesn’t mean you know what they say. It’s the minute you need help that humanity, class and culture come into play.

Some people will not approach certain people out of fear, they are scary looking, sometimes it is their color, or tattoos, piercings, even their gender. Being a woman needing help can make for an interesting minute as you scan the crowd for what might be a kind stranger, some where you hope.

“Excuse me?” Sometimes they stop, sometimes they don’t. Sometimes they just didn’t get it or hear you, most of the time its the ‘why are you bothering me look’, as they walk by. We are arrogant in our righteousness as we pass someone needing help. Until we need something…

What we need is the kindness of strangers and funny how the more spiritual work you do, you can see the face of the right one to ask. Woe to those who ask the wrong ones! There needs to be more kindness and less arrogance on this planet. Traveling makes me see too much. But it surly doesn’t keep me from helping someone when they need it, or giving directions even in a foreign language.

I watched today as the Air France flight I was on brought a small child traveling by herself from the back of the plane, where her parent was able to afford a seat, to first class, where she could be properly looked after. On their own they brought her up and kept her calm through the flight, she was 5 flying alone. Wouldn’t you like to know that strangers were being kind to your child, afraid and traveling alone?

I watched as an old woman was trying to get water bottles down from a self, she was struggling and I watched a number of young men pass her as I walked quickly towards her suddenly a gentleman jogged up to help. He didn’t even speak her language, just assisted her, smiled and left. Wouldn’t you like to know your mother/grandmother was being aided wherever she was?

In the first class lounge a man couldn’t be bothered to move his bags as a young mother tried to find a seat, in the first class lounge. Another young man began looking at his shoes as a woman carrying a child got on the subway, the old woman got up and gave up her seat. It’s an interesting world.

Being conscious and living consciously is the ability to see every minute what is going on around you and inside of you. You are not reacting to life you are acting life. You are not behind the ball you are in front of the ball. Are you awake? Do you sleep walk through life? If you cannot yet be fully conscious, can you at least be kind?

When we stop offering kindness as a part of our day, what does that say about us? Is it really so much to expect from people? Are we really to busy to be kind in our dealings? Are we really to busy to hold the door? Is it really to hard just to glance behind yourself? Is checking on the elderly such an inconvenience? Is remembering your friend is always alone and asking them for dinner so hard? Kindness goes a long way in to a person’s heart.

I am advocating kindness. Let’s be awake. Start looking around  and help each other out. This world is hard enough as it is. Being spiritual or a regular church goer, a nun or a priest, none of it means anything if you can’t be kind. It is taught that your life will vastly improve simply by giving without getting anything in return and with no one knowing, it’s the way to guarantee God’s eye. Being kind is one way to practice.

Work hard to realize your presence counts, your word matters, and when you see someone in need, DO SOMETHING!

Power of a woman


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Eventually women will realize that we need to stand united and not divided. The days of walking over the heads of other women to get something you deem worthy, are over! The days of bullying other women is OVER! We will only succeed standing together. I am tired of power plays, negative back biting bullying behavior. I am ready for a world of caring humans.

My daughter gave birth on Monday to her second child and the birth was nearly as traumatic as the first. Most of the trauma turned to drama because no one wanted to stand up, take responsibility, or even just make a decision. I am talking hospital staff here, you know the ones getting paid to care. WHAT! And then my spiritual community chimed in with their drama, REALLY! I am trying to do a job here!

We as women have been waiting for the day men return to the head of the table and support us on our journey of returning to our own power. But we have been waiting longer for women to return to power. Learning to speak up for ourselves and our families and giving voice to our children is our charge. It is a difficult and hard world, if we are not together who do you think will suffer? Who is suffering? Why are women going after each other? What is the only possible outcome for that kind of behavior? Look around.

The world suffers when women are not doing their job. We need to be vocal about our needs, really really vocal about the needs of our children. But most importantly we need to quit thinking someone is trying to take from us or hurt us, we are all trying to get to the same place. And on the other hand there are those women who are fighting us on every front, stop already! If you still believe there is some kind of prize for coming in first place, figure it out, there will always be someone coming up behind you and they too, want what you have. We are best served finding where are gifts, and talents can be best used to further the development of humanity. Putting the needs of others in front of your own selfish desires. Power hungry humans need to check themselves.

I am upset today and sorely disappointed in a number of women. Women standing under the umbrella of caring, concern, spirituality, pretending to be something they are not. We can see you! We are looking at you now and soon you will be best served to start doing your job. This world isn’t clearing itself for no reason. Even the Earth mother is getting tired of it and frankly

CAN YOU BLAME HER!!!!!!!!

It is and always will be God’s will that has dominion over the earth, better believe it!

And boom there it is!

 

Community


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I have been at a Kabbalah of Birth training this weekend and surrounded by community new and old of like-minded people, sharing in the desire to be a part of the change we want for our world. What a wonderful thing. We desire a world filled with light filled souls brought into families with light filled hearts. A community that becomes family.

I think of being a part of community part of the sacrifice we make that is filled with love, for in community the body of pain is as active as the one surrounding your family of birth or your family at home. Being in community especially a spiritual community allows personal growth in a place you thought would be filled with enlightened souls. Nope, we all just are interested in getting to the same place and are hoping to take as many with us as we can.

Where are remembering the importance of family. We are making families for people who do not have families and the reason is to support and grow, not control and separate. It’s a love revolution. A community is filled with beings in different stages of growth and change. It re-enforces the teaching if you can not see God in all you cannot see God at all. We do it see the light in ourselves reflected in everyone we meet. We do it to heal our families and our communities worldwide. I’m doing it for my grandkids.

It is my hope you can be part of a community. It is a heart opening experience to see growth in action. Sometimes those around us are so stuck it can be hard to keep going, we need each other. We are soldiers of light but even a soldier needs back up from time to time. Being a part of a community is an opportunity to develop your backup team. And if you are blessed enough to get to have a living master leading the way to your inner realization then you are in the right place knowing your team will be there when the going gets tough. Right on!.