Which car is you on the Ferris wheel?


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This picture represents one of the best ways I find in explaining the human experience. I find most people think of life in linear terms, born on this day, die on that day and every day in between just another day down the road. But in my experience life moves more in circles, spirals if you’re lucky. The way I look at it, we are on a Ferris Wheel.

I see us spinning on a wheel with designated start and stop points. For the linear thinker those would be the days of your birth and death. For those of us on the wheel the days of starting and stopping would also include days of redemption and atonement, resurrection and rebirth and other opportunities to start again, start over, move ahead or move along. Each point where the Ferris wheel pauses to let other beings on and off the wheel of life can be seen as way stations, where you receive advance training for the next station on your journey.

To be clear, on this symbolic Ferris Wheel the developmental stage of where you are at is represented by the location of your car on the Ferris wheel. See the wheel like the face of a clock. We enter each new stage of our lives at the car positioned at 6:00. It is the same position of the car where we get off, after having finished that cycle of experience. You are ready for a more advanced go around on the Ferris Wheel.

The one in this picture is the simplistic wheel of a beginner. All the basic stops line up with the hour hand of a clock. It takes one full turn to load each car on the Ferris Wheel and one full turn to empty it, adding new passengers.  Here’s a list of short one word definitions of each Ferris Wheel car.

6:00 Car- Car of Entrance or Car of Exit

7:00 Car-Car of Anticipation- the journey begins

8:00 Car-Car of caring-learning to love the situation you are in

9:00 Car- Car of blame-finding someone or something that is the reason the things are going like planned

10:00 Car- Car of rescue-thoughts of someone bailing you out, or now filled with righteous indignation you know how to save the world.

11:00 Car- Car of Ego-you develop your plan to save the world, your family, your lover

1200 Car- Car of Highest Hope – Car of Greatest Dread-the spark of renewed energy fans your inner fire, you are doing it! Or the plan is to big I can’t do it, this could crash and burn

1:00 Car-Car of Perspective-after the fall the air is the clearest

2:00 Car- Car of Waning Hope-the inevitable awareness that we cannot save anyone, we can only show them a door

3:00 Car- Car of Compromise- build a plan with many doors and some where you don’t want them. Eyes become opened to other realities

4:00 Car-Car of Inevitability- Realization that some things are just not going to work, passangers of the wheel will want to pick and choose the car they ride and avoid the cars they don’t want to ride

5:00 Car-Car of Relief-realization the someone other than us is in charge of the running of the Ferris Wheel. It is our job to become conscious of the ride.

6:00 Car-Car of Exit or Car of Entrance- with self acceptance new cars will show up carrying you towards the next Ferris Wheel designed with your lessons in mind.

Just a thought.

To think of life in this way gives me hope for all of humanity. I think of the energy that runs the Ferris Wheel as the highest energy of all. It gives me hope to think that humanity still has endless opportunities to start and stop on this ever forgiving Ferris Wheel of life. For our good it just keeps turning and turning continually offering its steadfast rhythm for our growth.

 

 

 

 

Another Awakening


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The only real way to know you are moving forward on your path is the constant awakening that comes to shake things up. We become complacent in our ways, and fear keeps us stuck in repeating behaviors and cycles. Then the blessed breath of God blows through our lives moving us when we feel we can’t be moved.

It sometimes feels “bad” but it’s a blessing none the less.

There is an awakening waiting for you when you open the eyes of your heart and see your truth. It happens to me over and over again, it just happened.

When things change; in our level of understanding, when we can accept that our thinking may have been wrong, or truth may have been veiled from us, is when the greater consciousness shakes us up.

Our creator is interested in our growth not our stagnation.

To repair the relationship between Creator and ourselves is to be open enough to accept the truth that has been badly misconstrued as taught by some of our spiritual teachers and leaders. We are not bad we are misinformed. The seeming break in our relationship with Creator is false. We are not sinners to God we are sinners to our selves and each other. God never turned from us we turned away from God or consciousness or love, try hard not to get so caught up in language you miss the forest for the trees..

Now another way to say this for those who are intolerant of “spiritual language” is to say our relationship with our world presupposes that the world has no consciousness at all. We are just here and it doesn’t matter. Its our planet, it has no feeling, we can rape it of whatever we want. To many our planet has no caring for us and the universe is a cold place where stars and planets hurl through space, with maybe a rhyme and reason, depends on who you talk to. We have been lead astray and we know it. Tell me I’m not connected with my child and I will speak to you about my truth which is also yours.

The awakening is the awareness of the greater truth. It is a truth that has existed before us and will be here after us. Truth is truth. The awakening is to remind you of your connection to Creator so that no one can claim you are less than anyone or any group.

It’s the ultimate understanding that we were made or created in the image of…

Powerful words of truth that release everyone and allows us our rightful place. They are the truths of our faith.

Almost done


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How do you write about those times in your life that push you so hard that you can hear your back breaking under the pressure. I for one get extremely tired of it. But it completely speaks to what this last 2 years have been for me and I am almost done. Done with the bull shit, done with falseness, done with fake spirituality, done with lies, done with manipulators, done, done and done.

What is with women who will beat an idea, hope or dream to death? “It will work, he will change, she will do what she said, they will keep their promises”, done, done and done. No they won’t, nor will he/she/they ever.

A human reveals their truth easily but often through rose colored glasses we refuse to see, or acknowledge what we instinctively know, and then we will walk right into a glass door all the while pretending this isn’t who they revealed themselves to be.

I’ve been teaching about self responsibility as long as I can remember and here I stand having denied my own truth. I gave away my power and lessons learned are having to be relearned. Thank God for our brains! Through my own volition I can make mistakes and correct them as often as I need to, that’s life. That’s why we are on a practice planet working at being human. But it doesn’t change that I am done dealing with this.

We are at a collective time of hardship on our planet, end times and all of that. We must have our eyes open and our hearts and minds engaged and their-in lies the problem. When life gets tough we close our eyes and ears singing lalalalalala I can’t hear you, so its not real. We spend time fooling ourselves until it is written on our face or reveled in our sickness and/or broken relationships.

Look up, Listen up, for the truth is there to see and is being sung for us all to hear.

This is not an easy ride; people are hurting, people are dying, hearts are being broken and lives are being changed forever. I am almost done.

After the death of my grandson my life was never going to be the same again because I would never be able to think on my pathetic weakness without remembering the horror my daughter had to endure. I allowed weakness to overtake me and hide the truth that was in front of my face. I had made a tactical error and trusted the untrustworthy. I had to face the lies I was telling myself. I leaned on myself rather than turning to God, the higher power that has always lead me.

My mistake, and I am done.

 

Being real


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As a woman with a mouth, meaning I say it like it is and I am not into sugaring coating things for the masses, if you don’t get it or like it, move on! The problem is trying to be a part of spiritual communities that pander to their community rather than teach, because 1) they don’t want to upset anyone with their beliefs, 2)they want your money they could careless what you think, 3) they have no real interest in your spiritual growth, at all. Pandering has never been beneficial to anyone or anything. Real change can only occur when pain does the driving. None of us wants to be uncomfortable, me least of all, but in the end pain is what moves humans from one state to the next. We need our spiritual communities to be better about teaching this.

Women right now as I see it, are more interested in looking good than sounding good, they would rather feel good but they don’t mean deep down inside, they mean lets have a glass of wine, so I can feel good. We are ignoring our power and subjecting ourselves to the new norm which is shut up, keep your moth closed and do what I say, oh thats the old way, never worked, never will. Real women are not told to shut up because who would walk up to that raging power and who has the courage… they don’t they aim guns, they wrap their hands around our throats, they threaten our existence. That is not keeping it real, thats showing how fear motivates being unreal.

We were meant to be real. We were each given a voice a point of view and the mental capacity to be all we desired to be. The world is a mental projection of our thoughts and feelings. If you feel bad about your life, chances are your life sucks, and sickness is looking for you in what ever way it can get to you. Do you remember when women, “went through the change” they spoke quietly of those women because it was like they were losing their minds. Did it ever occur to anyone maybe at the time of the change a woman has finally had about enough of the fricking weakness that is the leadership of our families and our world.

I am teaching my daughter how to be a powerful woman and what that means as a mother and partner. I am showing her the best I can that it is her energy field that holds her house together and helps her to understand her partner and her children. We have to be taught to listen to the wisdom that is in us, and hear the growing strength of our internal voice. For most women it’s the voice of their mother, holy shit, that is horrifying if the mother wasn’t able to mother, so then we must mother ourselves so we can mother our own children. We have to be real to our situation not dream of butterfly kisses, if you are down in the trenches like most of us there is not much sweet going on down there.

The strength of a woman is in her voice. The power of a woman is the light shining from herself like a shield, the love of a woman is in her eyes, sparkling when filled with love or dim when not. When we accept the norm of todays standard I find I am looking at women whose face registers nothing but the needle they worshiped for the God of youth, thats not keeping it real, thats selling yourself, please don’t give me that, we have the right to remain as young as possible in whatever way, nope “Don’t go gentle into that dark night” be real, being who you are makes you powerful, it is not how you look, nor has it ever been.

Those women who move through social situations based on looks are the ones who lose their shit mid 40’s, it is beyond they understanding that their power had nothing to do with how they look. It is and always has been dependent on the “who” you are and whether or not you are in touch with your source, are you? This is what the spiritual community was meant to fix. Becoming your best self, through the knowledge of that which is more powerful than you and then learning to hear the voice that loves you supports you and desires to lead you to success. Perfection is a process that goes on and on never finished so perfect yourself by staying real.

So again, whose voice are you listening to, and are you lowering your voice in order not to “upset” the status quo?

Are you being real? Be real in your grace!

 

Judge much


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Why are people still judging other people? Why aren’t we first learning to understand, be truly informed, exercising a non judgmental non reactionary way of being? Educated action rather than idiotic reaction!

It is often hard to understand other people. Who are they, where do they come, why do they believe the way they do? The word other being a starting point, we consider people ‘other’ from our selves because of the differences and thus the judgement begins. A She says, “He is not me, he does not know me, he wants to take from me, he wants to hurt me,” and the he says, “she is not me, she does not know me, she wants to take from me, she wants to hurt me.” Change the pronouns same story different day.

Maybe no one wants to hurt anyone and everyone would like to just be ok.

We judge the “others” because we think we know, because we are afraid, because we think something bad is going to happen and when it does we know who to blame.

Right now you can’t talk about anything because you will run into judgement everywhere.

Want to save the children, you are letting terrorists into the country

Want to send money, you are funding terrorism

Want to open your doors, you are giving away our resources

People who judge are very righteous in the reason for the judgement. Finger wagging and responsibility avoided, brain shut off from reason.

If you want to be a part of the change you wish to see in the world at least for the next few weeks, then start by limiting your judgements. If you are finger wagging about things going on halfway around the world from you, and the only source of info is tv, get some more info.

Get educated if you want to fly a judgement flag, know what you are talking about and remember beyond anything else,

Judge not lest ye be judged!

 

What do you see?


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It looks like a picture of the sun in the blue sky, and it is but what wasn’t in the sky were the pink orbs that are streaming towards the Earth. How we see things, and how carefully we see them, makes it easier to discern the truth. Assuming this is just a picture of the sun negates the beautiful pink orbs that can be seen as a sign of love in the air, the universe being encouraging, the awareness of the unseen forces, this image can be more than just a picture of the sun.

It’s an interesting thing to talk to people after a conversation or a movie they have participated in or seen. Each person will have heard or seen a different image or view point. It is as if they were at different events. It is usually the same with fighting couples. It ends up they are fighting over different and conflicting issues rather than the subject of the fight. While frustrating, socks on the floor is not as maddening as a husband who won’t talk, if you pick at your mate to figure out what’s going on, you will end up with a fight on your hands and not the reason for the silence.

How we handle what we think we see is important as well. Just because you ‘saw’ something doesn’t mean you know what is going on or what went on. The unexamined assumption is a mind trap, if you don’t know for sure, you don’t know. If you question what you see then question what you saw. The person who speaks from fact sounds like a person of intelligence, a person screaming accusations looks desperate. Make sure you know before you blow!

In the spiritual world it is said that we are living in a physical universe that is vastly affected by unseen forces. We see 10% of the reality of what is going on around us. We don’t often think about it but we are influenced by the pull of the moon, the power of the sun, the orbits of the other planets, mental noise, technological noise, so much is pushing and pulling at us. We are bombarded by noise so when we are reacting to something we see, we need to make sure we really saw it.

Just take a few minutes in the morning to adjust the viewpoint out your eyes. Instead of throwing yourself out of bed, languish even ever so briefly to awaken slowly, stretch and move and slowly allow your eyes to adjust to the early morning light. Meditate maintaining stillness and quiet on your insides, even for just a short time. Practice having reverence for your precious self and few solitary moments, and then start your day. It will help you stay in clarity.

These kind of acts of self care will help you see what is truly in front of your eyes. A person throwing a fit in front of you may not need your scorn they may need your help. A person quietly crying might need your support. That person who appears ‘crazy’ screaming may be separated from their handler. We do not know what is going on around us unless we stay present and focus on staying conscious throughout our days.

It is then you will know that what you see is really what is there.

open your eyes


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My teacher tells us that we are asleep and don’t know it. We wake up in the morning but really we are just moving through this reality on autopilot. And if you were honest you would think about how many times you were driving your car and realized you didn’t know where you were or if you had missed your turn. Driving but not driving, awake but not awake.

If you think about it, staying asleep to the reality of what could be possible if you were awake, keeps you living a limited life. You will never reach your potential if you believe there is no point in change and no true future. But, if you understood the point of gaining wisdom was to wake your ass up, you would probably get on it rather than continuing to live a life that is being dictated to you. This life is about your heart and living your heart’s joy.

Being responsible for your life is the act of sitting at the driver’s seat of your car, its your car so drive it, its your life so live it. But most people will follow in the steps of others, rather than forging their own path. Of course all children learn by mimicry. But we are to outgrow our childish ways and overcome our childish thinking to become fully conscious beings.

We are to learn to think for ourselves, open our eyes to the reality around us.

We need to get into the driver seat of our life. We need to open our eyes and see how our hangups are holding us back, and how our tendencies towards self sabotage are just another way of giving up. We need to be stronger than that and we have to develop that strength within ourselves. No one is ever going to be responsible for any aspect of our life. It’s all you baby.

The point of life is to awaken. To take full responsibility of your actions and develop the intelligence to do a better job so that your families may prosper and not suffer. Open your eyes to the reality of your life. Are you who people say you are really? or have you begun to believe the lie you have been telling yourself. That, “I’ll do it someday” stuff has to stop, time is marching!

The cool thing about the creator/God is that when you are in a certain place in your consciousness development it will open the door and encourage you to review your beliefs and your reality. If you are ready and willing another level of life will open up in front of you.

When we live with our eyes open we can actually see what there is to see. We see the influences others have over our life. We will see where we gave ourselves away and began serving another master. We will see where we chose to close our eyes to the truths in front of us because the fear of change became so great. If you let it the entire film over your eyes will drop off and your naked self will be within your sight. We need to see ourselves above all else.

So next time your emotions run you over like a truck, open your eyes and see what triggered it. What are you trying to communicate with yourself? Next time the jealousy that is killing your relationship comes over you, open your eyes. Has anyone ever stopped anyone from leaving when leaving was what they wanted? When we begin the process of opening our eyes the truth of how we manifest our beliefs comes into focus. How can you can be a person of faith if you are ringing your hands in worry about the state of anything? Open your eyes of faith, either there is a higher power at work that you “believe in” or there is not.

Being an awake human is advanced work for the regular human, graduate school way above the school of emotional turmoil and victim behavior. It takes courage and constant vigilance. By living an awakened life, you sit in the drivers seat and you will learn the ability to recalculate your journey as you walk towards your greatest destiny moving away from your old life of fate. If you are still being led by your emotional nose through life you might want to get started taking control of yourself. The ability to change everything is inside of you.

Open your eyes!