Staying in your lane


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Humans as a rule love to be the boss of things. They love to share their opinions and proselytize their beliefs. It is if you think about it a very hive mind behavior. A safety in numbers things. We like it best when others believe as we do and can feel like we are helping them as we firmly show them the errors of their ways. It helps us to feel better about the belief we have sunk our teeth into. There are people who still believe there is only one way towards salvation. And their definition of salvation is a bit one-sided.

Salvation is the act of saving or protecting from harm, risk, loss, destruction. So salvation can be the entrance of truth so that you may be saved from ignorance the greatest sin of all. Our search for truth, or salvation is a long road of truth seeking. My truth today is different than the truth of my yesterday’s. When I was younger I was a lot more rigid of what I thought truth was and how others were so very wrong.

Funny thing about time, growth, maturity… it changes your mind. It changes your perspective. And one must do this work for themselves. To stay in your lane is to understand that each human has a very unique hold of their perceptions, and their idea of the truth. All any of us can do is model behavior and belief. If what you say is truth or that your belief system”works” the proof is in the pudding they say, or it should be written all over your face, as the peace that surpasses understanding.

In the end none of us are changing anyone. As a parent you have power over your children… for a minute. We must lead by example, preach by behavior and spread hope by just being the peace we want to see in the world.

Stay in your lane. Love the lane your in. Try different lanes if you are dissatisfied with where you are at. Just remember all lanes are moving to somewhere and you are not the judge of where they go or how they get there. Stay in your lane.

 

 

 

What’s your hidden agenda?


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Can there be a hidden agenda when you find yourself; sitting, standing or ‘talking’ with a human that can barely lift their head?

Now, all eyes are down, phone in hand, zombie like gaze induced.

We know at once, what’s important to this human. Its status, its social standing, its virtual life. While eating, visiting, even working, all eyes on us…certainly not on you.

The human agenda has grown in its obviousness. Every moment can be known, be documented; fixed with photo shop, edited by spell check and instantaneously posted on Instagram. Like wearing a set of the Emperor’s new clothes we scream without sound; I am a star, I am a yogi, I am a spiritual teacher, I am a great mother/father/partner. I am beautiful, important, needed. I am lost, sad, horrified. I am the answer, I have the key, I have the map, I know the way…

Until we get that; it’s the same questions being asked, It’s the same feelings being felt, escaped and handled, we haven’t learned a thing.

The human condition has little changed; from the barbaric years of human sacrifices wait… we are still doing that…the human condition has little changed, period. You will find on the spiritual walk, path after path, all designed to do the same thing, enlighten you to this fact, nothing has ever changed. You have been chasing; money, power, fame, love, peace and you have not found it. You hide behind a hidden agenda of pretending to know what you want, or what you are looking for. Your hidden agenda drives your purpose in life and for most it’s just to keep the inner you hidden from sight. You are driven but to who knows where, to do who knows what?

And nothing will ever change.

Until you do…

So let’s get it out in the open, there is a hidden agenda within you. It’s an original operating instruction that was given to assist humans. It was, to seek the source of all, to find the maker and then merge with it. Really, underneath your desire to lose weight, get married, have a child, be the world savior, is this first operating instruction. Seek your source!

When our original instructions are obstructed in any way you become lost to your operational intent. You cannot merge with your original source because its signal bounces off of you rather than becomes a part of you. You can only merge with the signal when you open to it and it flows through you. Without merging  you are empty and this will cause you a feeling of discontentedness that you will try to fill with all manner of things.

Face it you are like a computer with bad code, you run at some capacity but not at full power.

But key in the proper code, boom. Keep your hidden agenda out in the open, search for the key that unlocks your secret heart and never give that password to anyone.

What’s the point!


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I’m not sure what the point is anymore. I’ve been writing and writing and just like teaching if no one is getting it, why continue?

I see pain, I have gone through pain, the entire country is going through pain and yet everyone seems stuck in their own limited mind-set. It doesn’t matter what you say, nobody is listening. They can only hear their own voice because they are soooo right. So many people believe they are right. God only knows what is going on.

If everyone is right why are we in the shape we are in?

I just read that a first grader took a gun to school and it fired into the ground thank God. Yet gun control, no way, you can take my gun from my cold dead hand, which in the hand of a 6-year-old is entirely possible. They don’t know what that gun can do. You kill someone on a video game they get back up, they turn into zombies, they don’t die.. but you will if it’s aimed at you when it goes off.

There are negative racist remarks on the bathrooms of our schools, you know where we keep our precious children safe. There are grown ass adults spouting racist, prejudiced rhetoric everywhere, and we wonder why their children do?

TV is hard to watch, the news? what news… if these are the end times then I say speed it up.

I’m tired of war mongers, haters, people only interested in taking…

In my country the welfare of the people is dependent on the number of rich influential beings who may either profit or be harmed by what’s going on. For example the pipeline, let’s poison these people’s water , but not these people over here…

The entire teaching of we are one is so lost on the rich. The teaching we are our brother and sisters keeper, so lost on the rich. The teaching this land is your land this land is my land, so lost on the rich who would own everything and charge us for it…

But no one cares and woe be to you who do…

Sorry people I’m tired of it. What’s the point…

I’ll tell you what the point is, my family, my children, my grandchildren, my adopted people of all races, genders and faiths…

Come near them, and I’ll show you the point of staying the fu*k back…

That’s right its not funny anymore

Are you a human being…


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This is a much repeated phrase that needs more repeating because it has constantly gone past the minds of all the human doings. We are doing and doing and doing, all the while claiming our being.

Here’s a line for you. If you find yourself sick, ill in any way, you have separated yourself from all the human beings. A human doing is a human alone, which in and of itself is impossible, but through our deluded ego we believe our doing is an act of our own will. We believe that we exist outside of creation. We believe in what we see, the world around us, but this does not include that which we do not believe or cannot see. I like them but I do not like those “others”.

Myself even, deluded into believing any other had power over me, or my thoughts. That any disadvantage I feel, comes from a lack my ego says comes from another, trying to take from me. Through all my spiritual work this belief has stuck, like a nail in my shoe no less. We are all deluded into the belief that we are lacking or something is missing and only in being a human doing can we fix it. Yet each human doing trying to fix that which is unbroken is swirling in a cycle of endless repetition of more and more doing. Getting no where really, really fast.

I have searched in dozens of spiritual communities for someone who “had it”. Someone not held in the fake belief that we need to do something to get “it”. I’ve encountered “enlightened” people still selling their beliefs when the belief of we are all one as humans beings and part of God, doesn’t need to be sold. Even our spiritual leaders are lead to believe they must sell their beliefs so that we can become humans doing the “right thing” in some “right” way.

What if freedom, true freedom which exists in the mind, was free and ours for the taking. What if the truth we desperately seek from someone we feel; more important, smarter, better able, really was none of those things. What if the guy next to you was as valuble to God as you are. What if every so called bad person was actually a human being trying to get to their truth. What if instead of seeing others as good or bad, smart or stupid, right or wrong, we began seeing them all as children of God.

Do we really think the God force of creation, created you, but not you, them but not those, this but not that. See how deluded we have become. We choose for the creative force who is worthy, us, human doings, putting ourselves in the creative hot seat, hmmm…

Do you know the mind of God? Do you think there is a human doing that does? Only a human being, exisiting in the light of God, is that you?

While many seem far away from the true teachings, any teachings really, they are still here and a part of us, you know human beings. What if your presense as a loving inclusive being made the difference to someone lost in ignorance of their true birthright. What if you chose to believe we are all a part of the creative force, beloved of God.

Underneath the pain and ignorance of human life is the mind of God at work, its not easy. I’m not God. I don’t know why my baby grandson had to die, or any child for that matter, but in the mind of God is the answer and that’s where I desire my mind to be attached. And as a mother, when truth comes to me, I desire for my children to have it, just as I imagine the mind of creator desires for its.

I reach for the truth for my creations as I know God reaches for me, and you, and you over there, all of us human beings. You are a part of humanity and you didn’t have to do a thing but be…

Another Awakening


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The only real way to know you are moving forward on your path is the constant awakening that comes to shake things up. We become complacent in our ways, and fear keeps us stuck in repeating behaviors and cycles. Then the blessed breath of God blows through our lives moving us when we feel we can’t be moved.

It sometimes feels “bad” but it’s a blessing none the less.

There is an awakening waiting for you when you open the eyes of your heart and see your truth. It happens to me over and over again, it just happened.

When things change; in our level of understanding, when we can accept that our thinking may have been wrong, or truth may have been veiled from us, is when the greater consciousness shakes us up.

Our creator is interested in our growth not our stagnation.

To repair the relationship between Creator and ourselves is to be open enough to accept the truth that has been badly misconstrued as taught by some of our spiritual teachers and leaders. We are not bad we are misinformed. The seeming break in our relationship with Creator is false. We are not sinners to God we are sinners to our selves and each other. God never turned from us we turned away from God or consciousness or love, try hard not to get so caught up in language you miss the forest for the trees..

Now another way to say this for those who are intolerant of “spiritual language” is to say our relationship with our world presupposes that the world has no consciousness at all. We are just here and it doesn’t matter. Its our planet, it has no feeling, we can rape it of whatever we want. To many our planet has no caring for us and the universe is a cold place where stars and planets hurl through space, with maybe a rhyme and reason, depends on who you talk to. We have been lead astray and we know it. Tell me I’m not connected with my child and I will speak to you about my truth which is also yours.

The awakening is the awareness of the greater truth. It is a truth that has existed before us and will be here after us. Truth is truth. The awakening is to remind you of your connection to Creator so that no one can claim you are less than anyone or any group.

It’s the ultimate understanding that we were made or created in the image of…

Powerful words of truth that release everyone and allows us our rightful place. They are the truths of our faith.

Ready for growth


It is a tendency of the human to remain stuck in behaviors, endless cycles of why is this happening to me? Without the awareness that doing the same thing and expecting different results is the definition of insanity.

We can say happy new year but do you know many who made it a new year, or will it be the same year played over again. It is hard to change, really hard and the motivation to do it nearly has to be done with a gun to the head, you can’t make me eat that salad I will eat this thick juicy burger, heart attack or not changing habits are nearly as hard as giving up addictions.

It is the same with behaviors, maybe more so. We can be motivated to lose weight or take better care of yourselves for a time, especially after a major health scare or before a reunion or new love. Changing mental behaviors takes an entirely different motivation and this is usually when behavior goes underground. We develop sneakiness so people don’t know what we are up to, we lose our self in lies hiding who we truly are.

I myself, just went through terrible heartache. I’m sorry but there is nothing worse than heartache. You can run from a lot but once the heart gets involved it’s a different ballgame. We will give ourselves away, we will become somebody else, we will lose our dignity giving someone our power or love or money or, or, or. Being in love with the wrong person is a problem.

The games we play with ourselves are the worst ones, the inner lies, the bargaining, all of it, so sad, and truly a loss of power. It’s a great trick of the darker side of life making strong women weak. I know if he could just see me, or hear me, or feel me, or or, or. None of it true if he had wanted you he would be there now! We can’t understand the heart and its nature, it surly wants what it wants and it takes a great bit of work to get the heart to see the way of truth.

The truth is love and being in love is not the problem it’s the why of love. Is it insecurity, fear, self loathing that holds you, is it really love or is it control. Is it love if you get angry because they cannot see you. Then it’s not love. Love and true love is unconditional and unattached. Means we love who we love, we can help it but we can’t make someone love us. And like David Bowie said, we need to learn to love and be loved. It’s not loving someone and loved back by that someone. Love is a big word.

I see where I went wrong in my thinking and I am so grateful for the lesson and glad I was able to stop myself from complete humiliation because a women’s heart is a fickle thing and not controlled will overtake your mind and drive you crazy, making you text (just because), call (because I wanted to hear your voice), write (I was just wondering if you are ok), You get this, same story different year!

Your true love will find you, if it’s your destiny it will happen. If not enjoy the company of the one you are with or learn to be alone. Two halves still don’t make a whole just 2 halves. To grow and mature is to look out your eyes, not through a glass darkly, not through rose colored glasses, but with your clear eyes. See what is really there because if science has taught us anything its that there is more out there than meets the eye.

Once your eyes are open there is a lot to see. When you look around you will see most people are walking through life with their eyes wide shut, not a way to live. The difficulty of the times we live in makes sticking to Divinity and the truth a way to be safe in life. Listen to no one but those who can be trusted (very small list). Open your mind, read a book, make yourself grow in a different way this year. Take the steps to change one thing. Change is hard but not impossible.

I heard a new definition of sin, it’s not using your brain. The greatest gift given, our minds for thinking, for reasoning, for growth, for power, ours to control not to be overrun by someone else and their idea of life. The discerning mind is where it is at. As I realized my issue, after crying a while I pulled my head out of my ass and thought about what I was doing and what it was doing to me.

In times of loneliness and stress we will substitute one comfort for another. We are such creatures of habit and big pleasure seekers. We are not into pain and will do a lot of things to avoid it. As soon as I realized the mistake I went to work to correct it, I am going to practice the idea of unconditional love with non attachment, practice I said, and dedicate to bettering myself so when Mr or Ms Right appears on the horizon I will have my head up to see, not buried in a tissue crying over what I couldn’t have.

So I am ready for growth, Are you?

 

 

I’m fine


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Don’t you get like that, just wishing people could see there is no real way you could be fine yet you are, fine, that is…just fine. After they ask you know they don’t really want to know if you are fine because they need you to be fine. So you are, just fine. But inside you are far from fine.

Then there are the others who when you look at them you can see the pressure and force they are using to keep up appearances, really you recognize the look of horror just behind their eyes…

“are you ok?”,

“no,umm yes, I’m fine.”

How is it we keep saying we are fine?

I see not fine when walking around and through groups of people. I see that look of things are not ok. It’s a stare of vacant eyes, a disconnect from reality because as you say are you ok, they come bouncing back into their bodies, yes, “I’m fine.”

No, you are not! It’s written on your face, this truth they themselves cannot see, they are not ok.

Our outsides need to match our insides, without that we become out of sync with ourselves.

Sometimes the one doing the asking, are you ok, was sent to help you. A Being put right in your path to assist you, sometimes with an encouraging word, sometimes with a, I know someone you can meet. But you turn them away with your unconscious I’m fine. We need to answer with consciousness when someone asks us, “Are you ok?”

It’s not that heroic to tell someone you are ok if there are tears in your eyes and you obviously need help. It’s not heroic to keep stuff so trapped inside of you it seeps out in not so awesome ways, if someone offers help, take it!!!!!!!

“I’m fine” said over and over when the opposite is true can be just a weakness of ego and a symptom of being a victim.

“I’m fine” said with determination works as a great spiritual tool especially when you realize you have lost your voice and strength, then you can work your self-power by seeing and believing, “I’m fine”, Right… fake it until you make it… new habits of positive self-talk indeed lift vibration bringing you in alignment with more positive things happening in your life. But you have to say it and mean it. Use it as a tool of self-growth and self-encouragement.

The minute your voice changes it into, I”M FINE or say it in a whine, is the minute the energy changes and it becomes ineffective and wrong.¬†Try to be more real with your self and speak your truth. You will feel the strength of your true voice return.

Know that truly being fine is the goal. So be fine when you are fine, and be fine when you can be fine, fake being fine only when you know you are just experiencing a bump in the road, but don’t fake fine when you are far from being fine, that is not fine at all!