Whose voice is that?


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Most of us would venture to say we are in control of our lives but truth be told everyone is held hostage by the voice in their head. Unknowing to them they are lead around like a dog on a leash to feel certain things when certain things are said, to react a certain way when certain things happen. We may have a great sense of justice constantly correcting ourselves or others, but the nagging interior voice may be completely different making you feel bad about everything you do or don’t do, say or don’t say.

Even the most assured person you see is dealing with a voice that is trying to mess them up, trip them up and lead them astray. We come onto the planet innocent little children but soon we are overwhelmed with the truth of our situation, and innocence disappears as survival becomes the game. The voice in our head can be helpful giving us the support we need in a tight spot, but left to its own devices that voice would rather chase you down the road to negativity-ville.  “Shut up and keep your head down”, it says.

I started my spiritual path when my life just became to hard to handle on my own. I needed more than that voice telling me I was never going to make it, or be it, I was doomed for failure. The voice changes tone and frequency depending on how well you feel or how much you are serving your false self. You know this one, dressed for work, the voice, “you wearing that?” You work hard for a meeting or project and that voice,”this is not going to work” The voice when not in check is certainly checking us.

I have grown weary of a voice in my head that just reappeared. It’s the voice of fear, the one that comes just as you are moving in a new direction, establishing new habits or growth of any kind. It’s the voice that says, “who do you think you are?” A long time friend that bitch voice, always talking in my ear sometimes in the voice of husbands, parents, sisters, brothers, that voice can be any bodies voice but it is going after me, making me feel bad. As if my dreams aren’t good enough to follow, like I don’t have something to say, like my opinion doesn’t matter, that I am no body going no where, who do you think you are…

In spirituality you learn that to be a follower is not the answer, it’s a stepping stone to help establish new habits but you must be in control of your own life. The voice in your head was put there as a support system, “you go girl” but some where along the line that voice lost itself and began taking over and becoming a vehicle the darkness can use on every one of us, because we all have that voice, we hear that voice, we listen to that voice inside of us.

Stop doing it! Take control of it! That is what meditation is all about, learning how to quiet that voice, taking back control of the thinking mind and making it your servant rather than your master. You can use breathe work and counting, or chanting, to help control your thoughts. Just focus on your inhale and exhale until the voice quiets or come up with a short phrase and say it over and over, especially loud when the negative voice is doing its work. Over time you can learn to control it. It’s worth it, that voice is not the boss of you! You are the boss of that voice! And as you grow in spiritual strength that voice becomes the still quiet voice that has been there all along.

Let’s talk about empowerment, again and again


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So much of what I deal with in my work is empowering a person. I do not empower a person through talk I empower them to see and activate their own power through wisdom. What good does it do me for you to feel powerful in front of me if when you get to where you need your own power, it’s not there. My words aren’t your words. You can go to a doctor and/or a shrink and feel good when you leave. You can be prescribed pills to help you get over the hump but if your backbone is not strong and able to lift tall buildings, then no one is doing their job!

The work of empowerment is teaching everyone that the power of the universe is sitting inside of you, yes you! It has been a great trick across time to allow humans to believe that someone knew more, could do more, or had more power than they had. Think on some religions, as an example, you ask for forgiveness for your sins from a human, or you look to a more worthy human to speak to God on your behalf.

As if God’s not going to be speaking to you on that matter later today, which means though you may give your power away to what you think is a higher authority but God is going to give you back the responsibility for what you did and said, it’s all you baby! The consequences will be yours, even if the priest gave you a hundred thousand Hail Mary’s to say. It will and always will be between you and God, no one else!

To accept the idea of empowerment is to understand you are alive and in charge of your self and your wellbeing. We study spiritual truths to know the real truth. Our lives become success as we empower ourselves to get to work and live the life we were meant to live. Why does everyone want to be a robot?

Spiritual work is to point your head up to where the power comes from. To worship money, fame, power and that stuff is your head pointed to the ground worshiping the dark. The Earth is now the dark’s playground. There is no other way to put the fact we are killing everything in order to get to have more. We are torturing animals for food, children for slaves and women have become garage cans expected to hold and process garbage, not even allowed identities or rights as a human. What is going on?

Sorry people, but it gets harder and harder to keep my mouth shut when I see nothing but oppression and greed and those I seek to empower cower rather than roar. So I need your help. I need each of you who to have truth and righteousness in you. And those who know to look up rather than down for guidance who know that there is a higher power to start speaking up. This power is waiting for you to get up and get your backbone involved in your life.

Start empowering your self with truth. Then empower everyone around you. Please!

If you have one of those mouths that is sarcastic, bitter, and pulls people down because you think its funny, what don’t you move on to Mars, I think they are looking for people like you.

Here on Earth we need the empowered, those who seek to uplift, to get busy. Let every word be uplifting we have enough of the other.

We are all God’s children, figure it out people, can’t you tell God is getting a little upset…

Dealing with days after death


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Time is the only thing that moves the sting of death. The further one is from the date of the tragedy the further the remembrance of the impact the tragedy produced. We as humans are asked to go through many challenging events, death is but one of them.

We are often tested by virtue of circumstances like war separating the men from the boys and girls from the women. Other times its something that happen’s hitting us close to home. A death or great tragedy in a family brings out the survivor, the victim, the teacher, and the follower. It will bring out the worst in us or the best in us but most of us need the tragedy to turn on the hero or see the tyrant within us. Tragedies are meant to stir this teaching that we are greater than the small-mindedness of our beliefs and we have the chance to grow and change everyday and sometimes we will be pushed.

The days after a great loss or death are filled with the sorrow of those around us. We come together to share memories and stories and sometimes a shoulder to help bear hearing the story again under hushed whispers. These are important days and must be shared with reverence but the real work of loss is found in the days when others can return to a “normal” life and you cannot. They go back to a before and you are now stuck in the after.

The empty days after the tragedy are fraught with too much time for thinking and rethinking, finger-pointing and guilty flag waving. And some must be expected as our human emotions left unleashed do unleash the torrent of sadness and anger left behind but not played out. Why did you do that to us?, we are left to ask, no one…

Faith is tested and we need to help stand next to the wobbly, next to those God is testing the most. Do not so easily walk away from someone who has experienced a tragedy. They may be strong in your eyes but behind closed doors we are all human. We are meant to learn all the hard lessons God thrusts onto us whether we want to or not. It is through community a person can gather the strength of remembering what is forgotten in the darkness of disbelief and despair. Being a spiritual warrior is to be present when someone needs you, not when its convenient for you.

Be true to your sister or brother who has experienced a tragedy and be like a mighty oak unwavering in your support. Though we will never know the mind of a God who allows us to be penetrated by the greatest of tragedies we can have solace in knowing there is no love without sacrifice.

If our hearts are involved in the pain of the teaching, or the lesson we are surrounded in then you can guarantee God’s hand in it. There is no sacrifice without love, if it is happening to you it does prove God’s love. We, in our finite understanding of love will sacrifice for our loved ones so how much greater is the sacrifice made by the creator of the universe for us. The more you hold to the teaching that you cannot know God at all if you do not see God in all makes every experience part of the all of God. Everything comes from the all. Everything seeks to return to the all.

Some just chose to leave way to soon…

 

open your eyes


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My teacher tells us that we are asleep and don’t know it. We wake up in the morning but really we are just moving through this reality on autopilot. And if you were honest you would think about how many times you were driving your car and realized you didn’t know where you were or if you had missed your turn. Driving but not driving, awake but not awake.

If you think about it, staying asleep to the reality of what could be possible if you were awake, keeps you living a limited life. You will never reach your potential if you believe there is no point in change and no true future. But, if you understood the point of gaining wisdom was to wake your ass up, you would probably get on it rather than continuing to live a life that is being dictated to you. This life is about your heart and living your heart’s joy.

Being responsible for your life is the act of sitting at the driver’s seat of your car, its your car so drive it, its your life so live it. But most people will follow in the steps of others, rather than forging their own path. Of course all children learn by mimicry. But we are to outgrow our childish ways and overcome our childish thinking to become fully conscious beings.

We are to learn to think for ourselves, open our eyes to the reality around us.

We need to get into the driver seat of our life. We need to open our eyes and see how our hangups are holding us back, and how our tendencies towards self sabotage are just another way of giving up. We need to be stronger than that and we have to develop that strength within ourselves. No one is ever going to be responsible for any aspect of our life. It’s all you baby.

The point of life is to awaken. To take full responsibility of your actions and develop the intelligence to do a better job so that your families may prosper and not suffer. Open your eyes to the reality of your life. Are you who people say you are really? or have you begun to believe the lie you have been telling yourself. That, “I’ll do it someday” stuff has to stop, time is marching!

The cool thing about the creator/God is that when you are in a certain place in your consciousness development it will open the door and encourage you to review your beliefs and your reality. If you are ready and willing another level of life will open up in front of you.

When we live with our eyes open we can actually see what there is to see. We see the influences others have over our life. We will see where we gave ourselves away and began serving another master. We will see where we chose to close our eyes to the truths in front of us because the fear of change became so great. If you let it the entire film over your eyes will drop off and your naked self will be within your sight. We need to see ourselves above all else.

So next time your emotions run you over like a truck, open your eyes and see what triggered it. What are you trying to communicate with yourself? Next time the jealousy that is killing your relationship comes over you, open your eyes. Has anyone ever stopped anyone from leaving when leaving was what they wanted? When we begin the process of opening our eyes the truth of how we manifest our beliefs comes into focus. How can you can be a person of faith if you are ringing your hands in worry about the state of anything? Open your eyes of faith, either there is a higher power at work that you “believe in” or there is not.

Being an awake human is advanced work for the regular human, graduate school way above the school of emotional turmoil and victim behavior. It takes courage and constant vigilance. By living an awakened life, you sit in the drivers seat and you will learn the ability to recalculate your journey as you walk towards your greatest destiny moving away from your old life of fate. If you are still being led by your emotional nose through life you might want to get started taking control of yourself. The ability to change everything is inside of you.

Open your eyes!

The Spirituality of magical thinking


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I read the New York Times every morning, I watch the news, I listen to radio, I keep my ear to the ground in order to best know where to put the energy of my magical thinking. I do not look on bad news as bad because there is a spin in the news to illicit emotional responses, or to instill fear and hopelessness. Just another attempt of the ignorance of darkness to wrap itself around our thinking minds, coloring how we feel and think. No thanks, I will do it for myself. There is no judgment in this thinking but rather a decision made to lift the veil of ignorance and do the job of sending healing light.

The middle east is struggling and the violence towards women increased and horrifying, as I hope you are well aware. While we make think it nothing because it is over there and their problem, it is really a microcosm look at what is going on with the power of women to reassert themselves. It is also happening with racial and sexual/gender equality, people are trying to find their voice and others are working to shut them up.

The violence is a pushback from the old guard not wanting to relinquish control. A control that is not real but in the minds of men, feels real enough. The thought we are all one, only works when everyone, EVERYONE, finally believes it and begins to treat each citizen as an important part of our collective human family. Each member, uncle what’s his name, geeky aunt betty and bossy grandma Em, and all those killing off women and children in every neck of the woods. There is not a dominate sex, or a correct gender, or a right color, or one view of truth in religions desire to control the thoughts of the masses.

Magical thinking and the quantum field teach that through the energy of thought, any thought can move and it affects humanity. With enough people thinking the corrected thought, we are all one, we are our brother’s keeper, and there by the grace of God go I, these thoughts will move through humanity. Hundredth monkey principal. They will cause change. Thoughts are energy in motion, like the riot mentality you see in crowds easily motivated through rough emotions, that the same energy can be gathered to encourage the upliftment of a negative thought form flowing unabated over our world affecting those to weak to control their own emotions.

The humans overwhelmed by emotions are not seeing correctly and old world beliefs can be hard to dislodge from a disenfranchised group of people who have no hope. When the men of the mid-east and frankly other places as well, are so afraid of allowing women their own thoughts, identities and way of expression of life, what can their thinking be? This is just ignorance.

We all improved when each human has a voice and a correct compass setting in their heart. We as a collective have enough knowledge to know that money is not the answer it has produced greed and the negative thought form that taking what you want, at the expense of others is just fine, destroying the world, just fine, killing, poisoning, bombing, lying, just fine. NOT FINE!

We are a collective, face it, we are, we are lifted together and brought down together, it is the work of those who have gone past the world of illusion and see the truth. That those who seek to control are not our friend. Those who seek to manipulate, not our friend, we must open our eyes, and see. And then be the opposite. We can use the collective mind to enhance those who ignorance can not be helped through regular means, to far away from truth, to influenced by negative beliefs, worn out notions of the have and have-nots. We, as our own consciousness rises, see above the fray, past the ignorance, into the darkness, so that we through our own meditative work can send light. Just like that.

It is magical thinking. It is the kind of easy change that can change the world and how others treat humanity and the earth itself. The ignorance of those who can not step away from the smallness of their mind to even glimpse the higher worlds of light need our help. It is within our reach, would we but believe it. I  use magical thinking all of the time. And now its time to use that magical thinking to help lift the ones struggling.

In my mind’s eye I see light reaching into the mind and hearts of these men, so that they may feel and see that each women killed, is a mother, sister, daughter, of someone, and every child killed was the potential of God on earth, each child, each individual, carries the spark of the creator. It would be wise to see God in everyone. Because God sees itself in all of us and those who would seek to change this view might want to check their thinking.

Now to the women, we women have a responsibility to our sisters and daughters struggling. Spend time in your prayers and meditation in a nonjudgemental way to speak to the creator of this, Creator knows, probably hopes we want to know, and that we want to assist to heal not assist to hurt. We lift ignorance through our concentrated effort of lifting humanity through the use of light. See the world surrounded by the purest bright light, that lets God do the work but it gives God the sign we are ready for the work to begin.

It is time for the women to rise. It is magical thinking. It is using the spirit of God to help, to heal, to be apart of the solution of bringing peace to earth. It is magical thinking and only a few steps away.

It’s time for humanity to rise!

Spiritual discipline


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I use to describe spiritual discipline as getting up early every morning to do my sadhana practice. My sadhana is normally the time I spend chanting as I am not as interested in moving first thing in the morning but I am totally in love with getting up early to chant. I have been a devotee of chanting for 20 years now. I love to chant!

I chant Naam, which is the holy word or words that sang, whispered or thought, elevate the listener/chanter. Through the natural law of osmosis we know that that which you spend most of your time doing or who/what you constantly surround yourself with, will be reflected in your daily life. It is also reflected in your level of happiness and overall success. This is why we do Naam!

Chanting Naam, or the continuous repetition of the sacred mantras over time  bring increased light not just to our bodies but down to our cells. Chanting allows us to accumulate light giving us increased chances for continuous health and prosperity. The more light in the body the higher the vibration. It is my belief and experience that sickness and jealousy, darkness and lack cannot live in a body filled with light or a affect a being who spends time merging with the sacred sounds and/or names of God.

These Divine mantras allows us to feel within our hearts our true state of being, united with the highest vibration. We were meant to live our life with our hearts wide open filled with love but the traumas of our lives and the effects of the body of pain over our lifetimes keep us trapped in a life of false darkness, filled with constant lack and conditional if any love. Chanting Naam allows us a river of higher sound vibration to ride opening our hearts filling them with love so we may merge with the Divine Light in our soul projecting love peace and light to beings everywhere.

But chanting isn’t enough. Understanding the overwhelming influence of the body of pain, its naysaying negativity, its dooms day predictions of ‘you’ll never be good enough’ means we must carry our spiritual discipline into our daily lives. We must teach ourselves to be the master of our emotions. We must live everyday as students of the divine spiritual wisdom putting the wisdom to work rather than being victim to the many unseen forces influencing us. As we work through our studies we learn about these unseen forces and living  in a constant state of awareness we know we can make these forces work for us in our endeavors rather than fall victim to them.

Spiritual discipline is a constant practice until the wisdom walks with you and you become the wisdom not just a student of it. You know, the day the student becomes the master, it is the path we are all walking, yup, all of us! But until that day we must make successes of our lives by implementing the tools laid out for us by the master teachers who have gone before us. It is our job to put spiritual discipline to work.  We must do the work. We must take the steps. We must implement the wisdom. We must take time to increase our vibration through meditation and prayer. We must be driven to be a better human every day.

This is the kind of spiritual discipline we all need to embrace. Working towards being a better humans everyday!

Be sure and watch for the release of my chanting CD Chanting Living Words on 1/20/2015 on CDbaby.com I would love for you to love chanting as much as I do, it changed my life.

nothing is ever done


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One of the fallacies taught in my childhood was the fairy tale idea of happily ever after, or the Disney movie version of cut as the wholesome story concludes with a stellar finish. These fairy tales spoke of a world of balance and the triumph of dark over evil, followed by that’s a wrap let the happiness commence. But, for many life is more like a horror movie with a never ending terrain wrought with difficulties and challenges no one consciously wants to face with no end in sight and accompanied by the constant fear of the noise in the basement. None of us wants to go to the basement and check out ‘the noise”, we all know what a noise in the basement means, no need to invite the boogie man into the house. In the view of the scary cat there is always a boogeyman in the basement, no matter how ‘safe’ you say it is down there!

Nothing removes the fear of the boogeyman like meeting him and destroying him yourself, problem is there will always be another boogeyman to wrestle. This life we are leading is based on the premise that we have made this journey consciously in order to overcome, to battle, to slay, to grow, in whatever way our greater conscious self sees fit. We are willing students in a giant school each playing our role for others in our family and our friend/colleague circles. Every relationship you are in provides a platform that the universe uses to help you overcome weaknesses in your character, reestablish karmic balance, and offering many opportunities for spiritual growth, or in other words, many boogeymen to deal with. Every event of your life, self-created or fated, is another path the universe uses for helping you to know and understand your character and how you do or don’t maintain balance in your own life. Think about how much about someone’s character is generally revealed during times of sickness and stress. Once shy helpful Betty turns into viper Betty under stress, clear the path her she comes…

Do you do that?

It would help us as students of life and especially those who would call themselves spiritual seekers, to understand that nothing is ever finished in our evolution, in our becoming an agent of light, a person that stands away from the masses as the key stone of balance not a rod of conflict. It takes moral fortitude and a rigorous spiritual discipline to realize that the traumatic events in our lives are happening in a way to stimulate our growth and reliance on a power that is greater than that of a human. It is a divine flow of energy that resides and moves within us that can be manipulated and used by each of us for the betterment of ourselves, our families and finally our world. But it will never be complete because of the beauty and grace of the creative spiritual energy. Through our continual evolution we are blessed with the ability to be more, infinitely more.

In our pursuit of merging with the Divine we become what we call in Universal Kabbalah the 3rd pillar. We as spiritual students and leaders stand as a neutralizing force to others polarizing forces. Wherever we go, wherever we are, it is our vibration that helps bring light to every place. We become the change we want to see in the world and we do it by becoming the light bearers. We become an active part of the larger picture when we realize this life is not about us, our singular tiny self, it is about the evolution of what is possible in life. We do this by the very elevated way in which we live, how we move consciousness ourselves, this is our part of the great work.

But don’t be fooled, the great work will never ever be finished, it will gloriously evolve!

manifesting evidence


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Showing my students how each of us manifests evidence is one of the best teaching tools I know. It is hard to dispute what is right in front of you especially if it’s right under your nose. When we look with heart-felt eyes we can see the hand of God at work in our lives, even at the times when we thought God had given up on us. And when we are honest we know there were miraculous events that helped lead us to where we are today. There has been a steady stream of evidence of how we have manifested the present state of our circumstances. We can see the manifested evidence of our path represented through the state of our finances, our health and our ability to maintain healthy relationships. It is our karma as to whether the outcomes due to the state of our path is positive or negative.

When we walk our path with opened eyes we can see our lives as a serious of events meant to awaken us so that we can live life with consciousness. When we live life as a victim feeling punished by God or any force you have stepped away from the truth and its is a dark path of misery you are walking. Get back on the path of gratitude to the source of the gift of life and the light returns. You will again experience prosperity and health, in what ever manner it comes to you.

 As students of the Divine Spiritual Wisdom, we follow the laws of the Universe to walk with the flow of life not while pushing against the tide. We walk a spiritual path that gives us the tools to traverse life and the wisdom to know it is our birthright and responsibility to live from the middle path, walking the path of neutrality, staying in the present moment. Manifesting evidence in your own life by thinking right, being right, speaking right, behaving right and acting right, allows you to become the role model of success within your family and peers. Life lived while maintaining peace, is a successful life, add prosperity and health and you are living the dream!

Understanding that life has its up and downs allows us to control what would otherwise look like an uncontrollable ride on a roller coaster. Understanding the universal laws and frankly keeping your head on straight will go a long way in creating peace in your life. While we may never know why certain events happen in our lives we can control how we react to them. 20/20 hind sight can later show you what looked like devastation was really the ground clearing for the best years of your life. You just never know! Overreaction just causes more karma and more bumps on the road. Teach yourself to go with the flow because frankly the flow is moving, not reacting, and we need to move to go beyond whatever is holding us back from our best self.

Work hard at living your best life being the best version of yourself. Be the manifested evidence that you can show others is the road to success. And then go get your shades because your life is about to get bright!

The in-betweens


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This picture is a perfect representation of my today. I am in-between states, in-between moods, in-between worlds. In other words its the day right after a healing training I just completed. It’s that in-between time of making a huge leap from one state of being to the next state of becoming. Time to take that leap to reach the next level.

I do a lot of spiritual work mostly to be a better mom and grandma and then a citizen of the world. In a world filled with pain and suffering spiritual understanding is the only answer I seek. I believe guidance from within will always lead me to where I need to go, where as guidance from outside takes me where someone else thinks I ought to be. A true spiritual student bears the responsibility of reaching the goal, the teacher can only lead, we have to leap!

Nothing is ever immediate and the letting go of the past conditions of our lives is a tricky thing when dysfunction is the norm in our world. The in-between state is a slippery slope or a rock stuck between two cliffs. What I mean is during the training we got so excited about what we were learning that we saw how putting the practice to work will change our lives for the better. Oh how exciting I just love life, she says walking home from the training with a big smile. Next morning the in-betweens set in.

Life today is the same as the days before the training. Nothing changed in my outer world, still doing dishes, laundry and dealing with life, and it made me feel a little blah. I was on such a high all weekend. Today I am alone in my apartment, what happened? I jumped off my cliff onto the rock, the in-between space, my life has changed but the full on effect will come on like a gentle breeze. The way to move past the in-betweens is to understand that change comes like a subtle wind, we have to trust in the process of change, or we become stuck and maybe find ourselves back on the first cliff afraid to complete the work. We have to have faith, faith in the work, faith in the guiding aspect of God.

My teacher says faith is manifesting evidence. A person with belief only believes because they have been shown. Faith is the eyes that see God and through the work of faith evidence is manifested as that which was done in faith reaps its reward.

So I reach for my spiritual tool belt and put the wisdom to work. I breath in and the most important thing I can remember is that I am not doing any of this for me, or to get anything, I do this work for others who have it worse than I do. I do it to lift the vibration of our world. Because when I elevate myself I elevate everyone. And an elevated world is what I wish to leave for my children and my children’s children.

Enough in-between, I’m jumping to that other cliff!

Difficult days


There is never going to be an early warning sign that big trouble is afoot. It will blindside you with its horror leaving you reeling with bruises all over your heart and soul. It is, I am sorry to say, a part of our growth and the forward push for a person on a spiritual path. To think that having God or spirit in your life will make life easier is like saying you can diet when there are no cookies in your house or people bringing them in. Life is not like that, we are to be challenged until we can withstand any and every horror coming our way. If we have not learned to live under pressure or learned how to stand up in life when everyone around us is sitting down, we have not done our job.

We are each charged with cultivating the strength we need to deal with the kind of pressure that exists in our world. Many people have stressful lives, I would venture to say most people have stressful lives, it’s how you handle it that counts. For me it has been the continual search for the ability to walk in faith. Holding onto the knowing that a higher power is at work and thank God for that. I can’t do it alone. I physically have to without family support I am alone, again a big why I have a spiritual path that allows me to have a spiritual community to lean on.

When I say I have God I mean I have a relationship with a higher power that through my work I have come to understand as a connection with a force moving through our world that is responding to me. My chanting practice allowed me to open that door, now I can experience what I believe to be the presence of God within me, my higher self, ok face it it’s a force or being more powerful that me and when I follow the directive of living in faith seeing with love even the horror of my life falls into perspective.

It is hard being human right now. I see horror everywhere. I want to fall on my knees and cry my eyes out for the pain and suffering that is getting ready to happen to people I love, people who have no idea that that was a plate glass they just walked into. In one minute your entire life can change forever and damage done that can’t be taken back.

We must cultivate a relationship with our souls, with our creator, we must for our own salvation. If we are to have peace, love and happiness, we must stand in our power, walk in faith and move through life with our hearts leading the way. We have to start, there is just to much pain…