Does it take strength to be strong?


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And does it make you strong to have strength?

There is a yoga sequence we do called t-sequence, you stand feet together, arms out, shoulder height elbows straight, like a T. We hold this in class anywhere from 3 minutes( I wish) to however long teacher decides we need to have our arms out straight without screaming for mercy. Try it, see how long you can do it! Because it’s funny, women with no real body strength are so much more likely to be able to hold their arms out longer than men who claim to be strong.

Eventually we get it does not take being strong to have strength. I may not be strong but don’t you mess with me or you will see my strength.

Being strong is awesome I need someone strong to open things and destroy things but thats it. I’ll need your strength for every thing else. Strong will not hold my heart, it will not ease my pain, it will not kiss the boo boo away, but your strength will.

I don’t need you to lift a car today I need you to have the strength to sit with me while I feel this way, and cry or laugh. Your strength gives me the freedom to be vulnerable. If you wave your strong in my face I may falter and not speak to you. I need strength to get me through.

When I reach for creator because there is no one else to reach towards I need creator’s strength. I need to know I’ll be ok and that God has my back. Because you people who claim to be strong often run when the going gets tough. You may be strong but truly you are weak. What happens to you when the strong is gone?

I’m tired of strong, I’ve been strong my entire life in every way possible, I have tried to be so strong until life got so hard, so difficult, so painful, that I let the pile of control I was holding fall to the floor. I told using manipulative people to hit the road. I refused the strong arm applied to make me feel weak and unsure. I refused the strong worded opinionated human and had them take their story of strong somewhere else.

In essence I told strong to move on and I felt my strength comeback to me.

The end is near


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The end of the year that is…

We are heading into the time of deciding what to plant in our mental garden to make seedlings of things and ideas that will gestate during the winter months for completion in next year’s spring.

So many people want the instantaneous gratification of I think it so it must be so. Now while this will get you results put some effort into it, take a stand, do some work, and you will move in the direction you’re desiring. God willing!

People want to quit their job now because they aren’t satisfied. People want to leave their partners, children, old parents, worn out dogs, we are a throw away society and see little good in working on or for something. But do you want to be left, thrown out when your end is near, when your worthiness is deemed not so much?

You reap what you sow, so if you are steeped in horror, check your recent past, keep going back, the seed of your folly is sitting back there, a moment, a decision, something you did started the chain of events you are living through now.

Lets be honest with ourselves for a moment, really, you know what you are doing, you know why you are doing what you are doing. People who claim, not to know, are manipulating you and themselves. That’s not cool and certainly not the kind of role model we need in todays chaotic world. Start looking in the mirror for your most obvious flaw, the one that gets you every time.

Drunk dialing the ex, driving by your old house, Facebook stalking, crying over a failed relationship, career, blaming the ex, blaming the parents, blaming the government, blaming aliens, consuming jealousy, small mindedness, narrow-mindedness, rigid righteousness, the list goes on, you know your own weaknesses.

So as we draw towards the dark time of the year I have a suggestion, if change is really on your mind. It’s on a lot of people’s mind but working on the personal self is a bigger issue for most and not something people do willingly.

But you can, you can make a list of a certain behavior you wish to work on and little by little with constant forgiveness and vigilance you can make positive change in your life.

Start the work of developing your seed idea and then look for tools to help you get through it. Some ideas

Stop smoking

Eat better

Develop better family relationships,

Make better more uplifting friends

Work towards developing a positive spirit

Stop swearing( I f*&king hate this one)

Find a new teacher, coach, lover, friend

Be a better parent, partner, friend, lover, child, sister, brother,

Be better

Take small steps and do the work you have no idea how empowering it is to put your own will power to work. I swear(hahaha) it will work. Get a calendar of the upcoming winter season and plot your chart, keep track of what you are working on, journal about it.

For once take it seriously. The world is going to get more chaotic and dark, we need to be committed in our drive to be a better person and to be part of the movement towards love and move      away from greed.

So as the end approaches be prepared for a new you in time for spring. Anything is possible you just have to take that first step,

Go and prepare for the end…

Doing the great work


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Most people have to have a job to get by but not every job we get paid for will be part of the great work we desire to do. A job can pay the bills but the great work is that which stirs our soul.

People lose their happiness when they forget that the 2 things sometimes are not the same. You may have a love of knitting but have to be a server to pay the bills. What’s important is knowing that what you do for money may not be what feeds your soul. That’s ok, we are big kids now and can make decisions that reflect that fact.

But just because we have jobs we “have ” to do doesn’t mean we should stop doing anything else. We have to maintain and continue to do our great work in order to stay happy. Paying the bills is responsible but a lack of creative expression in life is a life lived in black and white, no color at all. Our great work feeds the longing for life.

There is truthfully all kinds of great work. Because any work you do with love becomes great work. I think back to my Grandma getting up early to make the pies we wanted, no sweat for her to get up before the sun so we could have homemade pie for dessert. It was an easy sacrifice for her. Cooking was part of her great work. She did many things as part of her great work, which was to love and teach us unconditional love.

It’s important to the human that the work we do, be something that stirs the heart, we need that, to feel like our presence on this planet means something. When we feel like our work doesn’t count or that no one sees the importance of our work it hurts us. Beyond that is knowing that the work you do that feeds you, is something to have to do, were called to do, and it may be something that others around you will disapprove of. You must be ok with that as well.

So right now review your life. Is the thing you spend the most time doing part of your great work? Is the job you are doing to pay the bills killing your soul or have you reconciled yourself to knowing the sacrifice an artist makes to make art? Its important!

When you answer for this lifetime and the time you spent here you will have wanted to at least thought about it!

We as humans need to take responsibility for the time we spend, because our time is a gift. Also it’s important to remember that deep down inside of each of us is a link to the great work. A seed of something you wanted to pursue, to learn, a dream you have yet to follow. That’s why they say follow your dreams. It is key to figuring out your part of the great work.

So you may think you don’t know what you are called to do when in fact you have not spent enough time with yourself to know the answer. This is another reason a spiritual practice is important so the voice of your higher self can be in constant contact with you.

Imagine a world where everyone was fulfilled by the work they were doing. If more people were walking around fulfilled and excited about what they were doing it would change the face of the world. Every voice that is used in the way it was meant allows more and more people to feel free to use their voice and be who they were meant to be.

This is part of the great work as well, being who you are, who you really are. People get on me all of the time, you just are too spiritual, I can’t even imagine a world where every minute is not figuring out how to please God. Doing God’s work is the great work for me, it gives me pleasure and fills my life with meaning. I love it and when I can get someone to see the worth of their life and that the energy of creation and creator is within their reach…Aww my heart…

May you find your great work and may it feed your soul.

Can’t fake this


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Simplicity is Divinity is a favorite saying and cuts to the chase when confusion arises. The simplest answer is always best and the truth is hard to hide. Write it down, seems that commonsense is becoming hard to come by and people are easily manipulated by fancy words…

I am at anytime surrounded by many enlightened beings here in the greater LA area. There are hundreds of life coaches, spiritual teachers, beings that can give you spiritual gifts, there are a plethora of yogis, masters of every field, so many 800 numbers to call. What is wrong with people? Is it really a mystery that we write our own story, and solve our own problems. No one is going to give you the answers you seek, even if they do take credit cards.

You have to do the work yourself. Your teacher maybe able to move mountains, and is very popular, and powerful but you will still have to do your own work if you wish to evolve during this lifetime. Your teacher will evolve trying to get you to evolve. You have to evolve on your own.

The hardest lesson of all is taking the first step without an audience, or someone holding your hand. Being spiritual when no-one is noticing, doing the right thing because it’s the right thing to do. That day you grow up, make your own choices, speak with your own voice, be authentically you.

We can do what the master does but the true spiritual teachers will point your super seeking mirror right back attcha! They will make you see you are seeking yourself.

That’s how you grow by figuring your own stuff out. Not even Jesus could interfere with the process of those around him, imagine the frustration.

Listening to someones advice is fine, make up your own mind, think with your own head, speak with your own voice. Why are you being a puppet? Why are you so scared to stand up for yourself?

People who are more excited about looking the part of a spiritual teacher than being the teacher might want to understand how the upper world feels about interlopers, its hard to mess with God’s children, I’m not kidding! A person is best served teaching about God if God is driving them to talk. Anyone who thinks to know the mind of God again, might want to check on that connection, and the warning sign that says, dumb ass alert! True spiritual masters are self-evident and when in their presence you are very aware of their presence.

The sun shows great spiritual behavior. Constantly giving, quietly, no one noticing, doing it anyway! Be like the sun in your approach. If you are going to wear spirit beads, let it be because you are going to pray, if you are wearing yoga clothes lets see you in a class, of some kind, if you say you are a person of God then act like a person of God, your spiritual clothes won’t do the  work for you. Frankly none of the spiritual masters are cool with the, bring attention onto yourself proclaiming your closeness to God by what you wear, yah, they don’t say that, ever! It’s the meek shall inherit the Earth.

The most powerful are the most humble, their actions say it all, you can’t fake this!

Let’s talk about the word God for a minute…


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The light in this church is a great representation of God. The light itself falls over everything and anyone. It does not choose based on race, gender or how much money you have, the light shines.

We are all very confused over the idea of God, or whatever you want to call the higher power that is running the universe.

As you know I am traveling and the one thing I have begun to ask people, is there take on God or religion. Frankly it is amazing how many people simply do not believe in a God, or a higher power of any kind. We are simply on a spinning planet having risen out of the muck, waiting to see what’s going to happen next. Wow!

I am often told to watch how I use the word God and in many of the places I teach they moved to the words, universe, light, creator(same to me), architect of the universe, just so we don’t say the word God because I guess some of you don’t want to hear it. Well let me tell you how I see it and then you can decide if there is a need to get so up in arms, over a word.

I was raised in a born again environment, harsh beliefs, believe it or you went to hell kind of thing, didn’t make sense then, doesn’t make sense now. Really this powerful God has a temper, and is judgmental to non-believers and anyone who would think to die before being saved. Oh and that entire God’s chosen people thing… SO we have all been put here but only some of us are God’s chosen, please people, it doesn’t make sense!

I learned that God can be defined in 3 aspects, G-generating, O-organizing, D- destroying, God was not a person after all, thank you God. God is a force, a verb, not a noun. God is not and has never been your ‘father’ but God is your creator, different story…

When we look at God as a force then we understand that learning and working with the Divine Spiritual Wisdom that explains the laws of the universe, its working, and how we are influenced by everything around us, makes so much sense. It is a force, a moveable force, that is directing us, moving through us, and it is more than the mass that makes up our physical body it is also that which makes us, us. We are also a force living inside a physical vessel. We are animated bodies, not just vessels, we have the capacity for thought, consciousness, God in action all of that outside of our bodies.

The G-O-D words or the principle behind the word God allows us the knowing that we cannot understand the force called God. We will not ever understand the need to destroy in order to recreate, none of us wants to see death at the hands of evil or death by natural disaster it is too hard for us, yet it is part of the GOD force. We all know the new can only come at the destruction of what was.

When we understand that God is a force then we can learn to work with the force, it can be a feel good thing, and we can feel this great force around us, you know the chills you get sometimes when your lover is near, or the sudden awareness that something is up, that is the force of God working with you.

The cool thing is, the force of God is completely unconditional and available for everyone, headscarf, bald head, on your knees,  or silently praying every minute, or ignoring it altogether. This force is available and frankly effecting us all. The wind on your face, the sun in the sky, the pull of the moon, the repeating cycles of nature, are all sure signs of an organized universe given to us, for our comfort and growth. Not just yours, everyone’s.

Its time to get away from the label thing or even the trying to name things beyond our comprehension thing, some things we will never understand, ask the quantum physics guys, some things are just miraculous, ask doctors, nurses and every mother who has ever given birth. But to think we humans are it, when the GOD force is defined as infinite, then we as finite creatures will always have a hard time understanding it. But when we open ourselves to our own infinite nature, given to us by the animating force of the universe, you know G-generating, O-orginizing, D-destroying God, then we will one day all be on the same page of the book of life, knowing without a doubt that we are the GOD force’s children after all.

Community


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I have been at a Kabbalah of Birth training this weekend and surrounded by community new and old of like-minded people, sharing in the desire to be a part of the change we want for our world. What a wonderful thing. We desire a world filled with light filled souls brought into families with light filled hearts. A community that becomes family.

I think of being a part of community part of the sacrifice we make that is filled with love, for in community the body of pain is as active as the one surrounding your family of birth or your family at home. Being in community especially a spiritual community allows personal growth in a place you thought would be filled with enlightened souls. Nope, we all just are interested in getting to the same place and are hoping to take as many with us as we can.

Where are remembering the importance of family. We are making families for people who do not have families and the reason is to support and grow, not control and separate. It’s a love revolution. A community is filled with beings in different stages of growth and change. It re-enforces the teaching if you can not see God in all you cannot see God at all. We do it see the light in ourselves reflected in everyone we meet. We do it to heal our families and our communities worldwide. I’m doing it for my grandkids.

It is my hope you can be part of a community. It is a heart opening experience to see growth in action. Sometimes those around us are so stuck it can be hard to keep going, we need each other. We are soldiers of light but even a soldier needs back up from time to time. Being a part of a community is an opportunity to develop your backup team. And if you are blessed enough to get to have a living master leading the way to your inner realization then you are in the right place knowing your team will be there when the going gets tough. Right on!.

Meditate more!


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The path of the human is that of constant meditation. Whatever your mind is  focused on becomes your meditation. Focused on what you don’t have, focused on being to fat or thin, big or small, rich or poor, all of those thoughts become your meditation and your reality. The truth is we are all meditating all of the time. We either fill our heads with directed thoughts of positivity, healthy visualizations or we are drowning in our thoughts of lack, unhappiness and whose fault is this anyway. The smart person puts the words meditate more in to their brain and then uses their tools to direct their thoughts and at the very least learns to quiet the mind if for no other reason than to give ourselves a break from the running commentary going on in our heads.

Parmahansa Yogananda said that the best meditation was to keep the word God on the tip of your tongue, in your head repeat the word God over and over again, God God God God God, every second. He said that the word God is a word of high power and vibration and that through repeating the word we could bring this higher vibration into our selves. Resonating a higher vibration increases light into the physical vessel bringing vitality and prosperity. Now I tell that to people, eyes glass over, heard it a thousand times, be spiritual and something will happen. They turn and continue walking down their road of darkness and insecurity.

Meditate more! Our thoughts of lack and rehearsed pain growing stronger with each repetition create a wall in our minds, a wall of our own making. This wall makes sure our lives are full of lack and a repeat of the constant pain we keep rehearsing, keeping the light out and the darkness of ignorance in. Changing our thinking to include the repetition of a higher vibrating thought or word lifts us from the burrowed thought channels carved in our minds. We can create new pathways that lift our mood and change our lives. That’s right, just with the repetition of a word.

Meditate more! I talk to spiritual people all of the time. it becomes rote to say we mediate to become one with God and the world around us yet these same people who know better are playing the same sound track in their head not truly understanding what it is to be one with God. That sentence scares them this ultimate truth that we are one with God. Meditate more! Because it’s the truth our true and rightful journey is not towards some earthly goal, it is to know with certainty that we are walking in a vessel containing the original spark of light and life, that is God, it’s right their in your heart, really right now, it’s inside of you! Cool right!

Meditate more! Make your thinking world more of your friend. This was the intent of meditation to regain control of our mind. The brain we can see and chemically change with pills, but the mind is a wild animal that invades your world, never seen, constantly controlling you. Yet, through right meditation it can be tamed and can I hear an amen!

Meditate more using words of higher vibration, get weird about saying the word God, say love, say light, say Jesus, Buddha, find a word that works for you and try it for a few days and see if the constant repetition of a higher vibration word helps move your thinking to a more restful and peaceful state.

Change your life, Meditate more!