I’m fine


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Don’t you get like that, just wishing people could see there is no real way you could be fine yet you are, fine, that is…just fine. After they ask you know they don’t really want to know if you are fine because they need you to be fine. So you are, just fine. But inside you are far from fine.

Then there are the others who when you look at them you can see the pressure and force they are using to keep up appearances, really you recognize the look of horror just behind their eyes…

“are you ok?”,

“no,umm yes, I’m fine.”

How is it we keep saying we are fine?

I see not fine when walking around and through groups of people. I see that look of things are not ok. It’s a stare of vacant eyes, a disconnect from reality because as you say are you ok, they come bouncing back into their bodies, yes, “I’m fine.”

No, you are not! It’s written on your face, this truth they themselves cannot see, they are not ok.

Our outsides need to match our insides, without that we become out of sync with ourselves.

Sometimes the one doing the asking, are you ok, was sent to help you. A Being put right in your path to assist you, sometimes with an encouraging word, sometimes with a, I know someone you can meet. But you turn them away with your unconscious I’m fine. We need to answer with consciousness when someone asks us, “Are you ok?”

It’s not that heroic to tell someone you are ok if there are tears in your eyes and you obviously need help. It’s not heroic to keep stuff so trapped inside of you it seeps out in not so awesome ways, if someone offers help, take it!!!!!!!

“I’m fine” said over and over when the opposite is true can be just a weakness of ego and a symptom of being a victim.

“I’m fine” said with determination works as a great spiritual tool especially when you realize you have lost your voice and strength, then you can work your self-power by seeing and believing, “I’m fine”, Right… fake it until you make it… new habits of positive self-talk indeed lift vibration bringing you in alignment with more positive things happening in your life. But you have to say it and mean it. Use it as a tool of self-growth and self-encouragement.

The minute your voice changes it into, I”M FINE or say it in a whine, is the minute the energy changes and it becomes ineffective and wrong. Try to be more real with your self and speak your truth. You will feel the strength of your true voice return.

Know that truly being fine is the goal. So be fine when you are fine, and be fine when you can be fine, fake being fine only when you know you are just experiencing a bump in the road, but don’t fake fine when you are far from being fine, that is not fine at all!

fit in, don’t speak, watch what you say, or…


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A marina in Zurich or a boat parking lot. All we see are different boats near each other, no one boat stands out. All of them are various examples of the word boat. I feel the same about car parking lots, a bunch of cars together no one car stands out. Just like a crowd of people, bunches of people hanging around each other, no one person stands out.

Different are the fancy. The fancy boats are hanging with the other fancy boats, and the fancy cars are valet-ed away from everybody else’s not so fancy car. Same as all the Vip lounges across the world over, the special fancy people do not like to mingle with the not so special fancy people. The mingling of the people leads to the mind field of Facebook commentators, a sea of opinionated people hiding among everyone. They like to mingle online everywhere with everyone, just sitting on their computer with their spoon of terror ready to stir the pot.

Those who hide behind the skirts of everyone’s computer screen are stalking us all. Punishing someone for spelling wrong, not getting the joke, wearing the wrong clothes, weighing too much or not enough, they sit in judgement of everything we do or say. They make fun of this group, they expose that group, nothing is sacred, nothing is off-limits. If they need a picture they will steal one, if they need a different identity they take one. The world of the internet is their oyster and we are the pried open shells.

There are those who still believe that change occurs because we want it to or it should because its right, just don’t understand the laws put in place to run the universe. Fairness is not part of the laws. Every cause begets a result, as above so below, everything is vibrating, it all about the laws. When we work with the laws things work when we work outside of the laws we are getting our asses kicked and we may not even know why.

They say there is safety in numbers but that’s only if you want to be a sheep or part of any herd. Not me baby, lone wolf. I will get my opinions from my intelligence and not because joe blow said so.

We must put our conscious mind to work but that can only happen when we think for ourselves and not turn into robots spouting someone else’s word. We must use the sword of our tongue in a righteous way or that same forked tongue sword is coming after us. The world is a mind field of the ignorant and you will learn to either to keep your head down so as not to be noticed or you will become a leader. Powerful in your thought word and deed.

Funny how after all this time, all the advantage that the internet has offered people still struggle with what is the truth. You can only find the truth through your heart. You can read words you can hear words but only your heart will tell you if those words are truth. Divinity is simplicity, it’s either the truth or it is not.

The need to dominate is a real threat to humanity unless you engage your own inner master and access the strength lying dormant within most of us. Jesus wasn’t called a shepherd for no reason, humanity has constantly needed the guidance of a shepherd. But with so many sheep a few more shepherds are in order but more importantly I think is the wisdom of the world teacher who said, “these things and more will you do in the name of the father who sent me…” I think he meant humanity would one day remember that God made us in the image of the creator not so we could be victims of life but victors, co-creators of our own reality.

That’s a powerful statement

Kindness of strangers


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There is no way to tell where a person is from just by looking. If you are in a big city anywhere on the planet it has become harder and harder to see who is who and what language they might speak. Having words of any kind on your shirt doesn’t mean you know what they say. It’s the minute you need help that humanity, class and culture come into play.

Some people will not approach certain people out of fear, they are scary looking, sometimes it is their color, or tattoos, piercings, even their gender. Being a woman needing help can make for an interesting minute as you scan the crowd for what might be a kind stranger, some where you hope.

“Excuse me?” Sometimes they stop, sometimes they don’t. Sometimes they just didn’t get it or hear you, most of the time its the ‘why are you bothering me look’, as they walk by. We are arrogant in our righteousness as we pass someone needing help. Until we need something…

What we need is the kindness of strangers and funny how the more spiritual work you do, you can see the face of the right one to ask. Woe to those who ask the wrong ones! There needs to be more kindness and less arrogance on this planet. Traveling makes me see too much. But it surly doesn’t keep me from helping someone when they need it, or giving directions even in a foreign language.

I watched today as the Air France flight I was on brought a small child traveling by herself from the back of the plane, where her parent was able to afford a seat, to first class, where she could be properly looked after. On their own they brought her up and kept her calm through the flight, she was 5 flying alone. Wouldn’t you like to know that strangers were being kind to your child, afraid and traveling alone?

I watched as an old woman was trying to get water bottles down from a self, she was struggling and I watched a number of young men pass her as I walked quickly towards her suddenly a gentleman jogged up to help. He didn’t even speak her language, just assisted her, smiled and left. Wouldn’t you like to know your mother/grandmother was being aided wherever she was?

In the first class lounge a man couldn’t be bothered to move his bags as a young mother tried to find a seat, in the first class lounge. Another young man began looking at his shoes as a woman carrying a child got on the subway, the old woman got up and gave up her seat. It’s an interesting world.

Being conscious and living consciously is the ability to see every minute what is going on around you and inside of you. You are not reacting to life you are acting life. You are not behind the ball you are in front of the ball. Are you awake? Do you sleep walk through life? If you cannot yet be fully conscious, can you at least be kind?

When we stop offering kindness as a part of our day, what does that say about us? Is it really so much to expect from people? Are we really to busy to be kind in our dealings? Are we really to busy to hold the door? Is it really to hard just to glance behind yourself? Is checking on the elderly such an inconvenience? Is remembering your friend is always alone and asking them for dinner so hard? Kindness goes a long way in to a person’s heart.

I am advocating kindness. Let’s be awake. Start looking around  and help each other out. This world is hard enough as it is. Being spiritual or a regular church goer, a nun or a priest, none of it means anything if you can’t be kind. It is taught that your life will vastly improve simply by giving without getting anything in return and with no one knowing, it’s the way to guarantee God’s eye. Being kind is one way to practice.

Work hard to realize your presence counts, your word matters, and when you see someone in need, DO SOMETHING!

Here’s to the women


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This is for all the strong women out there who are sick and tired of having to explain themselves or endlessly apologize just for being who they are, and doing what they do.

Here’s to all the women who are tired of being weighed and measured and found to lacking in your eyes, stop looking at us.

Here’s to all the women who are sick and tired of being pulled down by other women. If you cannot see the worth in knowing and championing strong women, step back before we mow you over.

Here’s to all the women who are sick and tired of being pulled down by the men around them. Hey you, if cannot see the worth in championing strong women, step back because we are going to mow over you.

Here’s to all the women out there that stand against the belief  that because someone is born to you, it somehow gives you the right to harass, belittle, hurt, pillage, any manner of ugliness towards your child, it does not, nor does it give the right to ANYONE in your family

you will be held accountable!

Here’s to all the mothers out there who stand next to their children making the hard choices, unpopular choices, to keep their kids on the right path and lead the way when they get lost.

Here’s to all the sisters who sister women who do not have sisters.

Here’s to all the mothers who mother people without mothers.

Here’s to all the mothers who mother other people’s children, you know the ones with mothers who won’t mother.

Here’s to all the grandmothers who are still mothering and often someone else’s children.

Here’s to all the women married to a partner they stand completely behind, they are invisible like the roots of a mighty tree, holding it up without anyone seeing the depth of their support.

Here’s to the women who have entire families standing on their backs.

Here’s to the women who silently pray for humanity. Thanks!

Here’s to all the women living in the world of men.

Here’s to all the women who live in the world of women.

Here’s to all the men who support women, May God shine brightly on your life!

Here’s to us all!

Through strength of will women can change the world, believe it!

A greater love for Valentines Day, I’m right here!


“You, God, who live next door–

If at times, through the long night, I trouble you
with my urgent knocking–
this is why: I hear you breathe so seldom.
I know you’re all alone in that room.
If you should be thirsty, there’s no one
to get you a glass of water.
I wait listening, always. Just give me a sign!
I’m right here…

Rainer Maria RilkeRilke’s Book of Hours: Love Poems to God

In a world where we can choose the kind of love we desire to experience this is this kind of love I desire. To be loved because I am seen, my needs ready to be known, the desire to served and be served fulfilled. I want to say and I want to hear, I’m right here!

Never underestimate the power of love. Yet at the same time remember, the truest definition of love contains the effects of suffering, and the knowledge that we can love whomever we want, but we cannot control or make anyone love us back. A love that is given from the heart is in its truest sense a golden gift of life but only when given freely, with no need of love in return.

When we give our love in such a way, freely, loving without condition our heart grows stronger and we gain the ability to love more abundantly. This strength moves through our whole being. We become less judgmental, we see beyond the mask of ego to the hidden inner light of others. True love is the strength of recognizing the other as yourself. And fanning the light in others greatly fans the heart within us. We can heal ourselves when we love others completely, seeing the Divine at work in everyone. It is why the masters teach that love is the highest energy, and love heals all, and the big one, God is love!

Never forget the phrase, therefore by the grace of God go I. At any moment that which you look down upon may come to rest in your life. Or your living room may come to rest in your car. At any moment your life conditions can change. Love your family through their faults, love your friends like your family, and above all, love your creator who gave you the breath of life. It seems so sappy to say it like that, but life cannot be looked at in any other terms than miraculous and we are lucky to be alive. Living in a state of gratitude towards our creator, walking a righteous path will fill your life with a grace not found in others lives. Their pain is in their forgetting.

Do one thing everyday that shows gratitude towards your idea of the source, the great architect of the Universe, the one God. Imagine the work the force does continuously, like our sun for our planet, without asking anything in return from the life it is sustaining. The small time I spend in meditation is but a small gift as compared to the gift of knowing God is watching me every minute. God is listening for my every breath while I have to concentrate and focus, stay conscious while inviting the Divine to be a part of me because I am already a part of the Divine. You can understand the my desire to ask whether God needs a drink of water, because I need God to know I’m right here!

When we work with the Divine Spiritual Wisdom especial in community it brings God right into our lives and success a well lit path to follow.

Sending all of you love and may you have some really excellent chocolate!!!

Community


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I have been at a Kabbalah of Birth training this weekend and surrounded by community new and old of like-minded people, sharing in the desire to be a part of the change we want for our world. What a wonderful thing. We desire a world filled with light filled souls brought into families with light filled hearts. A community that becomes family.

I think of being a part of community part of the sacrifice we make that is filled with love, for in community the body of pain is as active as the one surrounding your family of birth or your family at home. Being in community especially a spiritual community allows personal growth in a place you thought would be filled with enlightened souls. Nope, we all just are interested in getting to the same place and are hoping to take as many with us as we can.

Where are remembering the importance of family. We are making families for people who do not have families and the reason is to support and grow, not control and separate. It’s a love revolution. A community is filled with beings in different stages of growth and change. It re-enforces the teaching if you can not see God in all you cannot see God at all. We do it see the light in ourselves reflected in everyone we meet. We do it to heal our families and our communities worldwide. I’m doing it for my grandkids.

It is my hope you can be part of a community. It is a heart opening experience to see growth in action. Sometimes those around us are so stuck it can be hard to keep going, we need each other. We are soldiers of light but even a soldier needs back up from time to time. Being a part of a community is an opportunity to develop your backup team. And if you are blessed enough to get to have a living master leading the way to your inner realization then you are in the right place knowing your team will be there when the going gets tough. Right on!.

The retreat is over, now back to life.


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Spiritual yoga retreats are a blessing to attend. It’s a way to replenish the well nourishing our souls as we gather together in community. Being Los Cabos was a great treat as the beauty of the rising sun was a spiritual lesson onto its self. Each day we meditated as the sun came up yet each day the sunrise was different. No two mornings were the same yet the outcome was the bright light of the sun in the sky giving us our daytime. Each day we were there the structure was the same yet each day carried with it differences of consciousness and growth.

It is always amazing how people come together in community and we were their to support each other through the trainings. The days were long and packed with information, Divine Spiritual Wisdom, and before long we were doing our practice classes each supporting the other, it was amazing. I’ve been a long time teacher but others had never taught and how glorious to watch the growth, and the smiles of a job well done.

Some of us ended our training by attending a spiritual retreat with our teacher and we received an outpouring of teachings of the Divine Spiritual Wisdom so powerful that lives can be changed. We each see how when the wisdom is put to work it changes human lives we learn so we can share. So many of us are ready to move into higher realms of consciousness and as we rise we turn and lend our hand to the person behind us not yet ready to go, but certainly willing to grow.

We need to refresh ourselves. We need to be in community of like-minded people so we may be strengthened in our process of growth. It can be hard to do this work alone yet the work must be done on our own. How wonderful to have people around you who understand. But now we are done. Our wells have been filled, our eyes nourished by many sunrises, and hearts by all that we witnessed. And yes there was much humanness to be had. No spiritual retreat is finished until the lessons become real in our lives.

It’s great to be on retreat. It’s great to be in community. Now the real work begins as we integrate what happened. We must apply the teachings to our lives and the let the adjustments to our thinking take hold. When you cannot go out on retreat, set it up within your day. Spend time by yourself in meditation, without the noise of the world. Give yourself a break from your devises and social media to really feel yourself. Find a teacher, a class or a group you can be apart of something so that you may grow.

The entire point of growth is sharing what you learn, what you feel and how glorious it is when the spiritual light enters your heart. In the end we are all teachers of one type or another and we need all the teachers to teach humanity to move from the darkness. Uplift everyone, send light to our world and you will be a soldier of light. Frankly, right now we need all the light bearers we can get.

Reach out when you need to so someone can reach out to you when they are ready. We all need a little help every now and again. Put your wisdom to work for your self and for our world.