Anchor of Hope

Anchor of Hope

I stopped writing some time ago, why bother? What difference does it make?

My life was derailed years ago and I have been swimming like hell to get back to some kind of shore. And I see a lot of people out here swimming the waters of “OH MY GOD ARE YOU KIDDING ME” with me. It seems we have become fish in a barrel to what ever feels the need to point a gun in our general direction, are we safe? What is life about now when we have stopped feeling safe in our surroundings? Safe in any sense of the word.

As a spiritual teacher I have looked around and watched the teachings fail us. Why are we in such a mess? So, I put myself and my work on hold. I needed a different teaching than everything is going to be ok, please! those people and their platitudes make me want to hit something. Have you seen the level of suffering that is going on? What can be done? What can we as a single person do to help? Is it all lost until this apparent fall is finished and the old guard dead?

Hopeless is how it feels!

But maybe that’s ok, maybe the old guard needs to die. Maybe what we are feeling is the death of the old world and its greedy humanity hating ways. Maybe it has to be a painful death so that light can begin to enter into the minds of men again. To bring humanity to the brink of extension, giving us all a near death experience especially to awaken the walking dead.

What we have to be careful of is the hopelessness of watching the worst of humanity struggle to keep in control dowsing us with a daily dose of negativity and back bending fear. Tragedy after tragedy can make a person turn their head away from the suffering of their brother or sister. “I’m only one person what can I do”, said way to often…

In the words of Jack Nicolson as the Joker in the first batman, this world needs an enema…

because as a humanity we are full of shit…

First rule of change, be the change you are looking for

Want to be peaceful in a non peaceful world, be peaceful at all costs.

Want to be loving in a non loving world, be loving at all costs.

Want to have hope in a hopeless world, be hopeful at all costs.

Last night, another sleepless night of never ending oh my God, What now? What next? the endless supplications to what feels like a unhearing God… I decided to listen to a podcast of Joel Osteen, I know so many people hate on this man, but I’ll tell you he loves God more than most do, anyway… he was talking about anchoring in hope,

here comes the God talk but listen to it this way… faith is the hope of things to come, faith needs hope, do you get that? If you claim you have faith, then you best be anchored in hope. In this easiest terms it means if you are steeping in fear like a used tea bag, you have lifted your anchor from hope, its trailing behind you like a tail not an anchor…

When life bogs you down with any kind of weighted personal issue and you have begun lamenting it, you have let your anchor go and you will find your self drifting back to hopeless ocean,

Open your eyes, see where you are and put your anchor back down.

Keep your anchor in check. Keep your anchor moored to hope. If you believe in a higher power then leave your anchor next to your God and quit flailing around like you don’t know, because you do know…

God is always there! Its you that moves around and forgets.

Anchor in Hope!

 

We are starting again

We are starting again

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There are many reasons to write a blog, one being so you can be seen and adored by fans for your wit and so-called wisdom. This is not that kind of blog, as a matter of fact, this will be the kind of blog that you will either desire to read or you will burn this connection, heretic witch…oh well I say.

This is a coming to Jesus minute.

Something I have found hard for the last 11 years of my life is the absence of wisdom, and a complete lack of desire for reality. I mean for myself. The fantasy of our world is a much easier lie to tell ourselves, helping us to sleep at night, keeping us asleep during the day. You may even think that you want change or for things to be different. You still think you have control over outcomes. You think you live in reality, the real world, where shit is real and you can be killed, eaten, taken advantage of. That you have real choice.

Oh did you think you were actually awake, and in reality. Who’s reality…

No baby this is a dream…

There is no advancement in life without this knowledge. Sorry, you who think you know truth.

You are asleep at the wheel of your life. You feel alive, I did too. It seems like we are living in a reality. I mean really don’t tell me that last 5 day migraine was a figment of my imagination, I wanted to die, slit my throat, bleed out, it was as real as the letters you are reading right now.

Are these letters real or does your mind tell you these dashes mean something? Who interprets your words for you, who or what gives them meaning? These are the big questions.

You remember the song, row row row your boat gently down the stream, merrily merrily merrily merrily, life is but a dream.

We are living in a dream. Your mind as an advanced computer has given your eyes something to perceive and a world to find your way in and through. Apparently we have been tossed down here and now have to figure it out, in an eat or be eaten world.

Humanity will never move past the horror we are trapped in until someone, somewhere, comes out of the dream, kicking and screaming, trying to wake everyone up.

Guess what? I’ll be doing that. I have no idea of the name of the one who just through me out of my dream. The pain of that 5, 6 ,7 day headache drove me to an edge, no returning from that. Once you see differently you can never readjust your eyes to lies.

We are living in a lie, convinced of a material world that has no real backing, it’s an illusion, and believe me as I threw up my guts until my stomach threatened to follow I no more believed this is an illusion than you do right now. So convinced that your pain is real, your suffering is real, so was I.

Nope and wrong. Pain just happens to be one of the ways spirit talks to me, a human with a difficult past, seeminglyunloving uncaring parents and no real support in the real world. All of my power came from a belief that I had for myself. I had to get hard before they went at me again, I learned all tricks to side step, pain, any pain, emotional, physical, spiritual.

So when I fell in LA this last trip I already knew my head would respond. I get headaches like some people get indigestion or get pissed, a headache is always just a thought away, my head gives me buckets of pain.

Because I have believed I am the creator of myself. No one can help, no one cares frankly, and I’m living in a material world and I am a material girl. So many lies.

I am no more material than any of you are, your dream of reality is as powerful as mine was.

So I will lead a new charge. I am done swimming in a world of my own making. It sucks here. My body thinks it’s the boss of me and due to DNA weakness my body is a fu*king nightmare a lot of the time. So time to turn the channel and tune into a different version of reality.

In other words, I, during an experience of unimaginable pain, that I was not only forced to live through, but no amount of drugs would remove me from it. That suffering world be mine baby, all mine, and mine to fix, which I fu*king did, victory arms.

It is said that creator will give us know more than we can handle, or maybe its more important to say that the greater your intelligence, and willingness to change or see clearly, creator will assist in clearing the cob webs from your mind, the film in front of your eyes, and release you from the cage your heart is trapped in. Using any and all means available.

Stay with me, and I’ll explain it all, as it was and is revealed to me,

you know, heretic witch that I am.

 

 

Rough patch


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Nothing like a rough patch to send you off your rocker and straight to the loony bin. Nothing like having your world derailed by somebody elses actions. And there is nothing like the feeling of sliding and falling, as you realize the rough patch you were afraid of is already underneath you and that feeling is your feet losing their hold. One rough patch of unbelievable size can bring a human to their knees. Time to put some knee pads on!

What we constantly forget as we move through life is, that its life. We have been so removed from reality that a human experiencing a rough patch looking at social media would assume that they are the only ones suffering. In fake-ville or the land of virtual reality everyone is; tan, healthy, on vacation, their children are well-behaved, they have the most loving partner, they got a big raise, new house, lost 20 pounds, blah blah blah.

Really people! Back in the day, we were told (I was told a least a billion times) what doesn’t kill you will make you stronger. It was understood that life was hard and the only sure way to get through it was to live your life. Hiding won’t help, denying won’t help, blame won’t help, AT ALL. You have to do it, live, you have to live!

Staying stoned – not living , staying drunk – not living, staying in denial – not living, starving yourself – not living, staying mad- so not living, ignoring your dreams – not living, pretending you do not matter- not living.

We go through life one day at a time. You can sit inside your head or in fantasy, living a yesterday over and over again or plotting your tomorrows, it will not help you live today. Each day you get up is your opportunity, your chance. It may be today that the rough patch shows itself, it might be tomorrow, but believe me, there is another rough patch ahead, just around the corner, outside in your yard, inside your kids head,

Believe me, there is a rough patch ahead.

You are alive you can’t avoid them.

My world was tossed around AGAIN, and I wallowed, my misery was all-consuming. My world was trying to fall apart again, AGAIN. UGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

I have had a very large portion of troubles in my life, rough patches would be an understatement. Just like you, I suspect. None of us are getting through this without a lot of pain, this is a growth spurt for humanity. Unfortunately, we will not grow unless we are forced to, so rough patches are designed to move you from pain, to smack you until your vision clears so you see what’s in front of you. One rough patch is not the big picture, the big picture includes rough patches.

So for 3 days I wallowed in the are you kidding me, again, I have to go through this again, again, like a broken record, again.

Wallowing feels good for a moment, oh woe is me, oh God leave me alone already, how am I going to get through this…………….

and on the 3rd day I rose, again.

It was just rough patch, which is not the big picture, nor the end of this story…

Which car is you on the Ferris wheel?


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This picture represents one of the best ways I find in explaining the human experience. I find most people think of life in linear terms, born on this day, die on that day and every day in between just another day down the road. But in my experience life moves more in circles, spirals if you’re lucky. The way I look at it, we are on a Ferris Wheel.

I see us spinning on a wheel with designated start and stop points. For the linear thinker those would be the days of your birth and death. For those of us on the wheel the days of starting and stopping would also include days of redemption and atonement, resurrection and rebirth and other opportunities to start again, start over, move ahead or move along. Each point where the Ferris wheel pauses to let other beings on and off the wheel of life can be seen as way stations, where you receive advance training for the next station on your journey.

To be clear, on this symbolic Ferris Wheel the developmental stage of where you are at is represented by the location of your car on the Ferris wheel. See the wheel like the face of a clock. We enter each new stage of our lives at the car positioned at 6:00. It is the same position of the car where we get off, after having finished that cycle of experience. You are ready for a more advanced go around on the Ferris Wheel.

The one in this picture is the simplistic wheel of a beginner. All the basic stops line up with the hour hand of a clock. It takes one full turn to load each car on the Ferris Wheel and one full turn to empty it, adding new passengers.  Here’s a list of short one word definitions of each Ferris Wheel car.

6:00 Car- Car of Entrance or Car of Exit

7:00 Car-Car of Anticipation- the journey begins

8:00 Car-Car of caring-learning to love the situation you are in

9:00 Car- Car of blame-finding someone or something that is the reason the things are going like planned

10:00 Car- Car of rescue-thoughts of someone bailing you out, or now filled with righteous indignation you know how to save the world.

11:00 Car- Car of Ego-you develop your plan to save the world, your family, your lover

1200 Car- Car of Highest Hope – Car of Greatest Dread-the spark of renewed energy fans your inner fire, you are doing it! Or the plan is to big I can’t do it, this could crash and burn

1:00 Car-Car of Perspective-after the fall the air is the clearest

2:00 Car- Car of Waning Hope-the inevitable awareness that we cannot save anyone, we can only show them a door

3:00 Car- Car of Compromise- build a plan with many doors and some where you don’t want them. Eyes become opened to other realities

4:00 Car-Car of Inevitability- Realization that some things are just not going to work, passangers of the wheel will want to pick and choose the car they ride and avoid the cars they don’t want to ride

5:00 Car-Car of Relief-realization the someone other than us is in charge of the running of the Ferris Wheel. It is our job to become conscious of the ride.

6:00 Car-Car of Exit or Car of Entrance- with self acceptance new cars will show up carrying you towards the next Ferris Wheel designed with your lessons in mind.

Just a thought.

To think of life in this way gives me hope for all of humanity. I think of the energy that runs the Ferris Wheel as the highest energy of all. It gives me hope to think that humanity still has endless opportunities to start and stop on this ever forgiving Ferris Wheel of life. For our good it just keeps turning and turning continually offering its steadfast rhythm for our growth.

 

 

 

 

Does it take strength to be strong?


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And does it make you strong to have strength?

There is a yoga sequence we do called t-sequence, you stand feet together, arms out, shoulder height elbows straight, like a T. We hold this in class anywhere from 3 minutes( I wish) to however long teacher decides we need to have our arms out straight without screaming for mercy. Try it, see how long you can do it! Because it’s funny, women with no real body strength are so much more likely to be able to hold their arms out longer than men who claim to be strong.

Eventually we get it does not take being strong to have strength. I may not be strong but don’t you mess with me or you will see my strength.

Being strong is awesome I need someone strong to open things and destroy things but thats it. I’ll need your strength for every thing else. Strong will not hold my heart, it will not ease my pain, it will not kiss the boo boo away, but your strength will.

I don’t need you to lift a car today I need you to have the strength to sit with me while I feel this way, and cry or laugh. Your strength gives me the freedom to be vulnerable. If you wave your strong in my face I may falter and not speak to you. I need strength to get me through.

When I reach for creator because there is no one else to reach towards I need creator’s strength. I need to know I’ll be ok and that God has my back. Because you people who claim to be strong often run when the going gets tough. You may be strong but truly you are weak. What happens to you when the strong is gone?

I’m tired of strong, I’ve been strong my entire life in every way possible, I have tried to be so strong until life got so hard, so difficult, so painful, that I let the pile of control I was holding fall to the floor. I told using manipulative people to hit the road. I refused the strong arm applied to make me feel weak and unsure. I refused the strong worded opinionated human and had them take their story of strong somewhere else.

In essence I told strong to move on and I felt my strength comeback to me.

What if you’re right?


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What if you’re right and we could have anything we want as long as we were willing and able to work towards it without loss of faith?

Go for it!

What if you were right and it really didn’t matter at all, what you choose to look like and what you choose to do?

Be who you want!

What if you are right and the thoughts in your mind are being influenced by perceptions, meaning you are controlling your life with thoughts coming from someone or somewhere else?

Think for yourself!

What if they were wrong and everything they ever said was wrong, would you even know, or care?

Know your own truth!

What if they are right and there is a God and it’s not a person but a force and frankly it wishes you all would just get to it?

So get to it!

Understand your own version of a higher power! It doesn’t make you weak or stupid it frankly makes you smart, you think a human created this world??????? you think we crawled out of pond scum…please people

Use your brain!

What if they were right and it didn’t matter if you were a girl or a boy or neither. And you don’t have to get married or have children or a career?

Choose for yourself!

What if they are right and God doesn’t really care what gender you are, only you know who you are, and who you love!!!

Love yourself!

What if there was no boss of you, ever!

Be free!

What if it doesn’t matter if you exercise or not, or eat right or not or nothing bad would happen if you just started to listen to yourself until you need to fire that stupid voice in your head and cultivate a new better one.

Talk sweet to yourself! For God’s sake stop berating yourself with your parents voice!

What if they are right and you could be anything you wanted to and all you had to do is put your mind to it.

Then just do it!

What if they were right and you sat on your ass this entire lifetime thinking it was one thing and it was something else.

Figure it out, for yourself, they don’t know you!

How many of you will hate when you learn life is a game, and we are the game pieces.

because we are

Really, if you are not living your life, you are being played!

I hate writing what should be obvious…

comfort zone


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We hear talk about our comfort zone all the time now.

Look at the definition

comfort zone
noun
  1. a situation where one feels safe or at ease.
    “the trip is an attempt to take the students out of their comfort zone”
    • a settled method of working that requires little effort and yields only barely acceptable results.
      “if you stay within your comfort zone you will never improve”

Funny to me are all the years I desperately wanted to find my comfort zone. I wanted to be comfortable, for once. Even now living alone and being alone so much I still hope to find a situation where I may feel comfortable. For years it was a similar feeling to never feeling safe. Now being alone all of the time just doesn’t feel right. It’s not my comfort zone, where is all of the noise, where are my children?

After all of those years raising a family and tending to the needs of children and teaching students, all of it was a comfort zone of sorts. I knew what needed to do and when I needed to do it. Now not so much! I have to decide what to do and when and what for…

Most of life was the search for comfort zone definition number one, “a situation where one feels safe or at ease” Knowing what you are to do and when to do it, are comfort zones. Knowing where you are supposed to be and maybe even who you are supposed to be would also be comfort zones.

But nothing lasts forever and life is about growth, boom comfort zone blows up and the next life stage begins to construct itself.

Fear strangles people and locks them in comfort zones they really don’t want to be in. Watch a drug intervention show and you will know what I mean. An addict will do anything to stay an addict because there is a comfort zone in addiction and its hell to get out. But after becoming clean the person can’t believe how long they were a prisoner to this self-proclaimed comfort zone of drug addiction.

Comfort zones become dangerous because they set us up for false safety. In life one must keep focus, like the lion searching for food, and the antelope hoping not to become food. They have to keep on their toes and in the animal world they stay on their toes because every one of the animals know they are food for something or someone else. Very little comfort zone in the animal kingdom.

So watch for your comfort zone traps. Habits are a comfort zone trap. We think habits are good but habits are just something you do all of the time, doesn’t make it good. Really, the only good habit is breathing, and as deeply as possible all of the time in order to stay in your head where you need to be, not in your fear driven comfort zone. These are the people with their head in the sand.

Comfort zones are religious views, bigoted behavior, crappy diet, stress junkie, drug addict(food, sex, drugs, rock and roll), it doesn’t matter. When you do anything to distract your self from life or put yourself in a prison of false comfort, it is a rejection of the power of life. It was never meant to be a game of ease, life is a journey and a journey goes up and down and all around and since we don’t know what’s going to happen, we call it a journey. We are on our way somewhere, yay.

So understand that a comfort zone is a state of mind at is best, you are ok just the way you are, be comfortable with that. You are moving forward in better ways, be comfortable with that. You are working hard to make a better life for your family and self, be comfortable with that.

Do not expect life to allow you to stay in your comfort zone. That’s not the job of life!

Leaving your comfort zone is the exercise of living life. Try new things, expose yourself to new thoughts and ides, awaken your creative self, get off your high horse, open your mind, shut your mouth, eat new foods, watch a different show, listen to a different station, try new music , read a different kind of book, go to a different church, spiritual system, climb a hill, move a mountain, sing loud, write often, dance every where all the time.

Shake your self loose from the confines of your rigid fear based living structure, break it wide open and let life in. You will be surprised at what you will find.

This is why I travel, it forces me out of my comfort zone and forces me into life, then I can sit and write and tell you all about it.

Let’s all get out there and live!

constantly tested


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We as humans walking on this planet are being constantly tested. Every minute, while we walk, drive, breath, think, be, work, we are being constantly tested. Every minute the decisions we make influence the following minutes, so the constant testing can cause results to happen right away, or later when you least expect it. Every action you take is causing a reaction of some kind, every time you are reacting to something, you are causing another action somewhere, that is causing a reaction somewhere else, endless and endless testing, and it all looks like life.

The reason to have some kind of spiritual practice is to keep physical life from looking like the end all be all of what’s up. If you sink into the lie of reality then you will never succeed at life the way you could have. Life is a game and the more you know the rules you can turn the game in your favor but as in all games there will be surprises, cheating, heroes, villains and happy endings and tragedies beyond your wildest imaging. That’s just gives you a taste of the power and potential of life.

When we let fear block us, and consume us, then we become the robots on the planet whose life is in service to the ones playing the game. Is that what you want? Do you want to be of service to the game of life by being a bit character to someone else’s drama? And you can, and most do, all movies need bit players, support actors, producers and directors just like life, but fantasy style. In a movie you can make anything real. Hmmm, isn’t that the same in life?

Allowing yourself to open to life and its constant testing allows you to open and grow to be able to handle large flows of energy which opens you for greater life experiences on the physical level. But be clear, be careful of what you ask for, as an increase of life is an increase in the attention of the dark as balance is an ever seeking force. To conquer the dark is to be fiercely unafraid of life, then like the bible passage says, with God for us, who can stand against us? Allow the sorrows of life to run over your back staying neutral eyes wide open to truth, you will still get heart-broken but through the wisdom of truth, the tears are quick as understanding brings peace.

When we feel like God has its mighty eye on us and its one thing after another, test after test, “…enough already!”, you scream into the heavens, know that it’s a testing ground to see just how much can you take and how strong is your faith. Our power is developed through the tragedies of our life, heroes are not born there are made, anyone can be a hero. Just as anyone can have a successful life, and a bountiful life. The price of such a life is the foundation that was built on hard work and long nights, many tears, lots of fears, but you kept on keeping on.

It’s a choice how we act, this is how we enact our free will. It is equally how we show our growth and our willingness to be a player not a thing to be played with. Make the tough choices, stay with your decisions, remaking them through dedication and wisdom. The better able we are to make the tough choices, to do the right thing when the other is so much easier. To stay sober, when you don’t want, to not eat when you do want, to cry when you need to, and not scream because you want to, so much testing.

Never under-estimate the power of the experiences you are surrounded in right now. Look hard at them and choose to tackle the tough choices, make the right choice, for you, not anyone else, there is no passing of a test when no choice was made. We must pass the test, through victory not avoidance. Take your testing like an adult and allow personal growth to be your true aim, not your ego’s wish for ease and fame.

Ok, now go, and face your fears, get back to work, and let’s get on with bringing the light first place in our lives. Having a spiritual practice allows you somewhere to go when it gets tough and unseen helping hand when you need one, reach for it…

Life


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One of the biggest misconception in life is the idea that your life is your own and that you are actually in charge. We are very egotistical people and often can’t see what is passing before our eyes. We see what we want to see and feel how we want to feel and pretty much do what we want to do. And if things aren’t going well, we love to complain about our lives.

We will push our systems to the limit by eating a crappy diet, not drink enough water or simply not get enough rest but when we get sick or feel like crap over our broken down body we start looking for someone to blame. You pushed your body and now your body is pushing you. Off to the drug store! But they don’t sell fix my mood, or lift this depression pills over the counter, you need a doctor for those.

The same things that will make you sick physically will also make you sick mentally and while we will try to manage physical symptoms we never think about dealing with the mental mess. My Dad had chronic stomach pain, and digestive issues, nearly every year I lived with him, he also had a terrible anger management problem. He was angry all the time. He thought it was because the entire world was made up of idiots that had to be yelled at to do a good job. It never occurred to him, his mother or his wife, that his chronic stomach issues, that he constantly complained about, were related to his constant and steady anger.

Or think about the many stories there are of women caught in the madness of “the change” as it use to be called. Think of hormonal imbalances in women who have no idea what a hormonal imbalance is, most think she is crazy because one minute she is up and the next she is down. Really how many people have been heavily medicated over issues that were related to something else. Our bodies are like machines that have certain maintenance requirements for steady service. And a breakdown in one system can be related to a problem in a different system.

When we do not take car care of the car the car will break down on us, if we don’t take care of the body it will not take care of us. Right now, can you take in a deep breath without coughing? Can you bend and reach your toes? Can you stand on one foot easily? Are you in charge of your mind, or do obsessive thoughts plague you? Do you have pain? Everything that you think you are “dealing” with is something that will simply grow into a bigger problem if the underlying issue is not being tended to. The body is hardcore like that. It will give you what you ask for until the day it can’t and on that day you won’t just be changing the battery!

These bodies were given to us. You woke up one day and looked in the mirror and there you were, but you came from somewhere and when you leave you will be going somewhere, obviously something is in charge of this game called life. We are players on the planet just as the animals. We are under a constant threat of natural disasters, and radical environmental changes, just like the animals. But as humans we were given the thinking brain that was to go above and beyond the instinct brain to the active participation of life brain, rolling with the changes rather than rolled over by them. Figuring out what works and what doesn’t.

Why are we constantly recreating the wheel? Or better yet when did people start thinking they could get away with stuff?

Our body is the vessel we are playing the game of life in and we are in charge of taking care of it. As players of the game we learn the rules and try to stay alive but as in any game there is an entire underworld at play trying to throw us off our game and take over our lives. When we are not consciously in charge of ourselves there is another power(your subconscious animal self) that will take over and do your job. To win at life is to stay as conscious as you can, as much as you can, through the entire day, week, month, year, consciousness is the goal.

From a place of consciousness comes the connection to that that is more than the small nature of the minds of men.It is the creative current that sustains life. As humans it is time to redefine what it is to live a successful life.

Everyday is another change to start again.

Death to life


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My Dad died recently and like all children who lose a parent there is no telling how it will hit you and/or how you will feel. I have a very strong spiritual belief in an afterlife, and a continuation of life. This gives me great relief for as each family member and/or friend leaves the material world I know they are with God. I know they are with me. I know they are safe. I know they are ok. The hard stuff is us left behinds, we must keep moving even when moving is the last thing we want to do.

My Dad died fast like my mother, they willed themselves to the other side, meaning though death was an inevitability for their conditions, there was no real reason for such speed. Their deaths were a testament to the control we have over a very important event and over our vessel. But I get ahead of myself. The speed of his passing meant there were very few spoken words of what was being left behind, and left unsaid.

This is the hard part of death the finality of ease of conversation, and for any exchange. As spiritual students we recognize the higher our resonating vibration the more we are aware of those spirits and souls moving through our physical world. The more we can feel them around us. They are helping and assisting us in our daily struggles and in those most intimate moments when fear sets in. They produce feeling in us until such a day we can more clearly hear the soft still voice. Our loved ones are with us, believe it.

Our loved ones once free of the physical do try and reach out if we ourselves are receptive. It doesn’t mean you are leaving your beliefs behind its you realizing there is a much bigger picture at play and death is the door to the rest of the story. We are not here on Earth for a last curtain call, it is a reoccurring role you play and those loved ones around you are assisting in your life story as you are assisting in theirs. Life is a journey, a game, a crap shoot, luck of the draw, a game of strategy, it is anything we make it. But its up to us to live it, not to get caught up forgetting what is inevitable.

If you are busy chasing titles, labels, accolades, money, fame, love, companionship, worthiness, then you are a person before a death has hit you. Because once death comes close to you, you will realize that the only thing that carries any meaning at all are the relationships you have been a part of. The way you treated people, your people, and other people. The way you took care of your brother or sister or any human challenged by life.

There is a loneliness in chasing that which is invisible in the next world. Your tittles and riches will be meaningless after death only your heart light will speak of who you were. You really can’t take it with you but you can leave a mark on a heart, make it a good one. The light of all the hearts you have touched will be the light that guides you home.

See you on the other side Dad!