Lonely-ish, my way


Is there such a thing as being lonely ish,

I don’t mean just being alone?

Is there such thing as being visible,

yet wanting to be alone?

When I stare out my eyes,

it’s all loneliness I see.

I am in my house, I am all alone,

that’s lonely ish to me.

But, would I trade my freedom,

for someone else to say,

what goes on in my house, or whether I’m happy or gay?

Would I trade my freedom,

just not to be so all alone?

You can bet I can’t, nor will I ever,

live in a house where I must atone.

I’d rather be lonely-ish and Queen of all I own.

But don’t be fooled lonely-ish has its price I say,

and one I am, and for me, all too willing to pay.

Because lonely-ish is all it takes

to live my life,

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messages for the push


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There are times in life when the cheer leading squad of your world gets busy or is uplifting someone else, you can beg and plead with your God or the universe for a kind word and the silence will be deafening! I mean the screaming sound of nothing can take your breath away. It is the loneliest feeling, needing something you can’t find or reach for yourself. Yet, what do we learn, the strength you need to get through your sh*t is inside of you.There is inside of all of us a self-regulating monitor of love and support which can be activated if you quit looking for a source outside of yourself. The great power of the universe is inside of you. When we scream in frustration sometimes it’s because we know, we need to do something. Crying into the wind only can do so much…

So here are some push notifications to use when you need to remind yourself of the power in YOU

  1. You are unique. The world seemingly desires consistency between us humans, all the same wonderful weight and degree of success. But that level of sameness will burn the world out. We were made unique, a single vortex of creative energy that can suck a room dry with its neediness, or swirl in its wonder becoming everything you were meant to be. So stop trying to be “them” or “one of them”or “just like them” You were meant to be you, singularly you, without you where would any of us be?               SO BE YOU
  2. There is no wrong answer. Sorry perfectionists but each of us develops our own answers for our own unique life. I’m not Betty and you are not Joe. So what works for Betty may not work for Joe. And for every question you have there are a multitude of answers, there is not just one. An experiment is done over and over with minute changes in the problem to test outcomes. What is an answer today may become a problem tomorrow. SO KEEP TRYING, don’t stop searching for the unique answer for your unique question.
  3. You look like you are supposed to. It cannot be stated enough that your physical shell is not you, just the entity that houses you. We change houses all of the time. We remodel our houses. But if you tear your house down before you have another house you will be homeless, a spirit without a body. This is how most people live, as a spirit without a body because they hate their body. Hate yourself long enough and your body will begin to play along. Look in the mirror and see you, if you need to do some remodeling then do so. But remember you are not your body, it looks like its suppose to. You are awesome just as you are.
  4. Material success is not real. Change fixes that, one day this makes you rich the next day your money is gone. Material plane anything is a but a dream. Because frankly material success is a trap. Once you are dead your material success stays here and you go to the next world taking with you what can’t be carried. Don’t be fooled by a world that wishes to make you a slave to material things and this desire your primary concern. You can’t take it with you so work to have that which is not material.
  5. Love is the answer. The horror is most people have no real idea what true love is. The level of sacrifice, the amount of pain we endure, the hopelessness we face in an uncertain world all contribute to our suffering. This one is easy and hard but the lord gave us the one law, love your creator with all your might and love your neighbor as yourself. Correct your eyesight from dismissive judgement, see the other in front of you as you, see the world as a parent sees a child, love with the fury of a mother and the world will love you back.
  6. It is all a mystery. There is no human who knows. There is no one better than another, in the eyes of the big game of life. There is no second place. There are no winners or losers. There are no rules only consequences. The mystery of life is like a veil over our eyes keeping us from truth but focus your eyes on the third eye and your vision will  clear. Be better everyday. Be open to all that is happening and the mysteries of the universe will open to you.
  7. Be in charge of you. Face it no one knows you better than you know yourself.
  8. Don’t let anyone be the boss of you. Think for yourself. Be your biggest fan.
  9. Do your inner work . Be flexible in your beliefs. Keep your eyes on truth. Do not let someone else influence your beliefs. Be your own monitor.
  10. Use silence as a spiritual practice. When all else fails put your hands in front of your mouth, stop talking, start listening. That incessant chatting inside of your head is getting you nowhere fast, silence that voice. Harness inside of your self the voice of truth. Believe me, truth has a distinctive voice, you will recognize truth when you hear it. Believe in silence and let nothing penetrate your inner most self. God made you so be quiet and hear the voice of your creator, it calls for us.
  11. Be still and know that I am God. You can’t do it alone. We were not meant to do it alone. The help and support we need has been there the entire time. Inside of you is the strength of the universe. You are massive in your power so know that God is with you and the be that power.  Be still and know God has you, everything is going to be alright.

Death to life


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My Dad died recently and like all children who lose a parent there is no telling how it will hit you and/or how you will feel. I have a very strong spiritual belief in an afterlife, and a continuation of life. This gives me great relief for as each family member and/or friend leaves the material world I know they are with God. I know they are with me. I know they are safe. I know they are ok. The hard stuff is us left behinds, we must keep moving even when moving is the last thing we want to do.

My Dad died fast like my mother, they willed themselves to the other side, meaning though death was an inevitability for their conditions, there was no real reason for such speed. Their deaths were a testament to the control we have over a very important event and over our vessel. But I get ahead of myself. The speed of his passing meant there were very few spoken words of what was being left behind, and left unsaid.

This is the hard part of death the finality of ease of conversation, and for any exchange. As spiritual students we recognize the higher our resonating vibration the more we are aware of those spirits and souls moving through our physical world. The more we can feel them around us. They are helping and assisting us in our daily struggles and in those most intimate moments when fear sets in. They produce feeling in us until such a day we can more clearly hear the soft still voice. Our loved ones are with us, believe it.

Our loved ones once free of the physical do try and reach out if we ourselves are receptive. It doesn’t mean you are leaving your beliefs behind its you realizing there is a much bigger picture at play and death is the door to the rest of the story. We are not here on Earth for a last curtain call, it is a reoccurring role you play and those loved ones around you are assisting in your life story as you are assisting in theirs. Life is a journey, a game, a crap shoot, luck of the draw, a game of strategy, it is anything we make it. But its up to us to live it, not to get caught up forgetting what is inevitable.

If you are busy chasing titles, labels, accolades, money, fame, love, companionship, worthiness, then you are a person before a death has hit you. Because once death comes close to you, you will realize that the only thing that carries any meaning at all are the relationships you have been a part of. The way you treated people, your people, and other people. The way you took care of your brother or sister or any human challenged by life.

There is a loneliness in chasing that which is invisible in the next world. Your tittles and riches will be meaningless after death only your heart light will speak of who you were. You really can’t take it with you but you can leave a mark on a heart, make it a good one. The light of all the hearts you have touched will be the light that guides you home.

See you on the other side Dad!